Hard Late Nights and Cigarette Bites

Slip through the back door by the cemetery gate

You can always come over but til nighttime you wait

You wipe off the lipstick you wore with your guy

So it's easier to kiss me and wish you would die

I watch you drink up cigarettes at 4:40 a.m.

In a nightshirt too sheer with a yellowing hem

Lay my head on your lap, you'll play with my hair

You tell me you love him but you know I don't care

Cause if I am your secret, I have nothing to say

I'm your world in the dark but I'll ruin your day

Your skin is my rose, my hands - thorns at your side

I'll bite you and mark you in spots you can hide

I just want to destroy you, you've asked if I would

But with a gun to your head, I don't think I could

Whether you're screaming my name or eating me out

I only feel alive when inside of your mouth

When you're bare to the bones you let it slip that you're mine

And I'll only believe you by the scratches on my spine

Cause dear God, how you lie, I can't trust your eyes

You're the only one I need and the one I despise

I hate the word "him," you wish you could choose

But the gambling is fun when you have nothing to lose

You're his bottle of whiskey, I'm your hotel room

Your thoughts are like photos, my bed's the darkroom

Now I can't stand the the light, in the morning it twists

Through your skeletal fingers and crumbling wrists

Your touch becomes foreign like someone I knew

I'm a stranger, we agreed, doesn't exist next to you 

And to us, it's too true

You don't know my eye color, I can't spell your name

But when you f**k me tonight I'll forget all my shame

After all's said and done, we're still hungry for more

In bodies that don't feel like ours anymore

Your lap is too boney, you hate the color of my hair

I'd whisper I love you but I know you don't care

You know I regret you and you love that I do 

Heartache has always been a synonym of you

You live for the torture you cause for your pride

You need others to feel how you're broken inside

You'll forget for a day, I'll forget for a lie

Come back by the graveyard when your willing to die

Author's Note

I haven't written anything like this in a very long time. Just a little experiment, but constructive advice would be greatly appreciated! Thanks!

Reviews

[Suhd]

This is great. The complexities of human nature and relentless contradictions make it even more lovely. It's more like Gothic kinda romance.

[aj milton]

"toxic relationship" is often quoted. This dark and destructive description seems to capture the very essence of that phrase.