Impasse

 

At an impasse once again

Feeling unsettled and fidgety

So many things have happened in the recent past

I feel myself outgrowing my present

 

Self-aware and unwilling to play

Surrounded by players

Who love the game

 

What to do now?

Continue in the current path

Or shift into independence

Personal fear of abandonment shadows my every move

But who would abandon me

If I were to proclaim my independence

 

Your bullshit bores me

Making me feel irritated and chaffed

Who do you think you are

Making my choices for me

 

To fight and beat the beast of cancer

And yet to still be so afraid

Anger is painful

Why does this need to be so hard

 

Frustrated and bitter

Time will march on

Question is will it move forward

Mated or alone?

Reviews

[FateDictates]

"Personal fear of abandonment shadows my every move"
no one likes to admit to the child inside..beautiful

[Corset]

first I think "Why does thid need to be so hard" is suppose to be "this". what a wonderful voice about searching for strength during trying times. Cancer is such a scary word, and this poem reflects so well the anger of survival issues, awesome write.