Sameness

I can remember the day it all started

We had a small home

It was cozy

Before it felt cramped

We lived a life so half halfheartedly

But I didn't know

What it was to put my whole heart into something

We painted the walls monochrome

Black and white

But I didn't know that those weren't

The only two colors in the world

If I could take back one thing

I would take back everything

But especially

Ever meeting you

Not because I hate you

Because I love you

You were comfortable

And familiar

You serenaded me in a sameness

I had felt all my life

Safe

We fit together

Perfectly

Too Perfectly

It was too soon

I went with what I knew

You were perfect to me

But I wasn't perfect to you

Slowly the sameness

And the comfort became

Boring

I realized that with you

I wasn't me

Your care began to swallow me

Your sameness and kindness

It blinded me

God, I'm so sorry

If I had known

That there was more to the world

Than you

I would have never...

But now

I step outside and the sameness

I had known my whole life

Is gone

And I can see every color

And a cold chill can curl up my spine

And I don't feel safe or protected

I feel brave

I can see the bold red of danger

And elegant greens of adventure

So now all I can say to you

Is

Find someone

Who can show you

The color

And take you away from the sameness

You thought was me

Cause the sameness and comfort

Is not a way to live life

Don't you dare dwell on me

Brake down those monochrome walls

Get out that small home

And don't turn back

Don't go back looking for me

I won't be there

I would take it all back

Meeting you

Everything

But through all the sameness

You have showed me one thing

I have never known before

And that was love

So I love you

But not anymore

And I hope one day

You can feel the color and senses

Find someone who is excitedly different everyday

So you can fall in love

Everyday

Over and over again

More than you have ever loved me

Author's Note

Been forever since I posted something... Months maybe?

Reviews

[Pash]

You just touched a nerve of mine with your poem, it's true, sameness swallows up love.