I am a fake

I am a fake

A phony

I'm the person who fakes smiles for others

And then they stab at my heart even more,

Like the dead animal on the side of the road

I'm the person picking everyone up

And no one is there for me when I fall

I'm the one who pretends to be friends with people I can't stand

Because the thought of being alone scares me 

But I'm already alone

I'm the one who doesn't belong to a friend group 

Because I'm scared I'll break it

When did I start smiling more when I'm holding back tear?

When will I stop?

Why do I feel like others happiness, 

Is a price for my own?

"You wouldn't understand, you're popular"

When did these words start

They don't know that the friendships I hold are just ashes 

Ready to drift into the wind

I am a fake

A phony

Once your use to it, smiling doesn't hurt anymore

Reviews

[winter;lyra]

we all are, Jen
good poem..