You

You

You was once like a shining light of hope at the end of a long dark tunnel

You 

Was once like that warm summer breeze you would get in the depths of winter, picking you back up and bringing security and warmth

You

You was once like the first laughter of an infant child, spreading love and joy and everything good in this world

I adored you

But you

Broke down your house of cards

All walls fallen, leaving you bare

And all the Jokers you used to build it

Were exposed

All the lies and unkempt promises just didn't fit anymore 

And I shattered

Like the glass pond of a chess set

I grew to hate you

You

You promised! To be the wind underneath my feet and lift me out of these ashes of others sins

You 

You told me that without my light you would lose your way, but you proved to me that your light was bright enough on you own

You 

You said you would hold on to me tight but instead you dangled me above masked demons that still haunt me to this day, waiting for your release so they can gnaw at my already salvaged bones

You Lied!

You cheated! 

You never intended on playing by the rules!

All I ever was to you was a stepping stone, you were only using me to cross the river that is your dreams and once you hopped on you realized I would soon break by the current

You never loved me

You never cared

And even now that you are gone 

You are still an habit

Like the stupid car commercial tune, you are triggered my the smallest things and manage to slip into my mind even though I try so hard to forget

You live in my dreams but my dreams can no longer be called dreams, I only have nightmares

And in my nightmares there is always a hero and a villain!

And I am always the villain!

It is only now I realize that the villain is always the loser in these kind of games

Blamed and burdened

You turned me into a villain

You took my soul only to break my spirit

My body and mind are no longer one

Like a vase you smashed me into the ground, sending pieces into blank space

You are the one to blame!

You are the only one I can blame!

YOU,YOU,YOU!

You can never rekindle this love because you never had a candle to begin with

If i had to choose between you and death, I WOULD CHOOSE DEATH

Because...

At least death would stay by my side for eternity

Unlike you

Author's Note

This is not directed towards anyone, I was watching a drama and I put myself into the characters position.

Reviews

[Curtis.Lenker]

This is such a epic work. This has such a powerful message to who ever hurt you. I love it. I could literally feel every emotion in this poem. This is a very intense piece and it really was worth the read. Thank you for sharing.