Before I Really Fall

A rewrite of an old one inspired by an old situation, fortunately one I left behind for a much better one.

Please don't kiss me like that.

I'm tired of insincere kisses.

Save it for a lover.

Now I know we’re only meant to be friends

Although I once hoped to mean more than that to you.

 

This isn’t about love,

This is about you leading me on and messing my mind.

Oh yes, I bear some of the blame.

I was just as willing to play

But now I need more.

 

Whatever I once felt when I kissed you is gone now,

Even though I don't know how I'll ever go on without it.

There are too many others you've

Kissed the same way,

Too many times I wanted you near

Too many things I wanted to share with you

When you weren't around.

 

So let's end it right now,

While we're still friends,

While I can still be grateful for good times we've had,

Before I really fall in love with you.

Reviews

[zainul]

Expressed the agony of indifference and neglect quite eloquently.
Felt the heartfelt statement and understood how one decides to leave a fake lover.

[Jennie Baron]

I appreciate your reading and your comments. Yes, "fake lover" may be exactly the words that apply here.

[zainul]

I am very glad that you appreciated my review.

[The Rock And Roll Cowbo..]

Some do treat love like a game, and in the end they will be the losers alone when everyone learns their ways.

[Jennie Baron]

Well said! I'm so glad I finally found someone who doesn't play games. This was written, or at least begun, long ago.

[The Rock And Roll Cowboy(REBEL WITH A CAUSE)]

I am glad to hear that too. :)

[vaishnavi]

it is very nice poem it shoes the feelings inside you although it is very similar to me and my feelings

[Jennie Baron]

Thank you very much. I was surprised how many people related to the theme of knowing someone you hope will be a lover, and having to face the fact you'll only ever be friends.

[vaishnavi]

yes actually it is true i love a person a lot but he didn't know of it and in fact he don't know who i am and he is very far from me i make my heart to understand that it will not be for whole life and its just a pretty dream ... : )

[MAC]

oh wow.....this is so well written and shows great strength. I would just linger....not very good at projecting disasters of the heart

[Jennie Baron]

I appreciate the good word, Mark. Thanks!

[David Scott]

You know, I think this is a blessing in disguise. When there is someone I will love it is instantaneous. At least the fall is... Standing on the edge for days, months, years... Their is no promise of flight... What good would it be to stretch your love's wings when you are standing on solid ground?

I love the poem because it shows well the futility of trying to live out an oxymoron.
Well done! Oh, and his/her loss...

[Jennie Baron]

Thanks so much and I appreciate your reading it, David. This an old poem reworked and pretty much a situation I was in at the time (fortunately long ago and I'm in a much better one for a number of years now). When I read it mostly what comes through is bitterness.

[Tina Louise UK]

been there done that...could relate to this one...brilliantly expressed :) x

[Cico Штос]

wow! just wow! amazingly simple, yet beautiful :D

[Jennie Baron]

Thank you so much! Maybe my attitude was simply bitter when I wrote it. Like I said, that was a long time ago. I appreciate your taking the time to read it.