A Heartless Encounter

Aloud, read the dark, brooding man:
"Watch the embers burst into the catacombs of my soul.
And I do implore…
I do implore that you guard your heart,
For these embers will destroy the core of you…
Leaving nothing but an empty shell…
An empty--"

“Kind, sir.

Can you tell me, have you seen my heart?”

I inquire.

“I’m afraid I’ve not seen your heart, my dear,
 For you’ve no heart to see.”

“No heart to see?” 

I gasp.

“Pitiful girl,

Your heart’s been dead for years.” 

He says coolly.

“Dead… for….”
My head throbs,
My vision blurs,
And I can feel the overwhelming ache of emptiness

Free itself from the shadows of my soul.
“Years…”
My heart’s been dead for years?
“Is that why,
No matter how badly I wish to love another,
I never can?”  I ask.

“Afraid so, miss. 

Love is once in a lifetime. 

Lose it, and it shan‘t be found again.” 

And then he just turns away…
Turns away as if…
As if we’d been discussing something trivial,
Something as trivial as the…
Weather and,
Mumbling candied words of the existential

Faintly to himself,
He fades into the background
Of the busy cobblestone streets.

Though suddenly,
Almost violently,
Everything began to make sense.
I wasn’t… 
I wasn’t capable of love anymore.
And I haven’t been…
For years.

Oh, yes!
Very clear now.

In this lousy moment of my absurd disgrace,
Ludicrous tremors of laughter overcome my body,
And I don’t bother to fight them,
Nor to hide them.

 

Strangers might be staring, 

But there's no use in pretending…
Pretending to be what I’m not,

….And what I’ll again never be.

Author's Note

Just a little something I wrote last night while listening to The Ataris and Alesana.

Reviews

[Windy]

Whoa, this is intense. Being told you have no heart. Afraid I dont' believe that once you lose love you can never find another though. Can't believe it. I like how you told it as if a man was reading a story and you interupted him. I liked the small touches of imagery you added, cobblestone streets, dark brooding man. You did a good job with the world of love and loss and how it can make you "crazy". It's a good write and a good read. ;)

[Helen Woodward]

I really adore your use of language, it is brilliant!! You have such a firm grasp on wording format and you never stray from your subject matter. the second voice in this makes it special...
Good girl!
Helen xxx

[Cardinal Robin]

The limits of language take hold here, we can protest a lack of heart yet like Yin and Yang there is some heart in your heartlessness...beautifully rendered here...a very compelling take you have on life...most seductive strangely...perhaps riskless, or ultimate in your face God! Hmmmm

[universalove]

In all reality in order to feel you must write from your spirut. So therefore the love that you had or lost really does`t matter because your heart will lead you to what is right for a goddress to have. I felt your poem and felt sad because GOD SO LOVE THE GIRL OR WORLD FOR OUR PAIN.

[Orlando Murcia]

THat s**t was crazy good!! I loved it it so like a tiny story and poem put to one. Great job!, Nice job! Orlando

[Kory]

well that was different loved it though...it was like a british play gone emo....really good though...i can wait to read more

[jumbie's #1 fan]

this is really good. I like the realization of being heartless. How sad.

[Siddartha Beth Pierce]

Amazing write...compelling and frightening at the same time. This is really well done. Thank you.
Light,
Siddartha

[Raja]

Wow! what a great self-assessment! I like the way it had been written. Good job. Good use of words in verses. Good story-telling power through a few words. Nice decorated with phrases and clear in meaning. I like the poem, its personal and carefree touch just make me happy.

Thank you.

Raja.

[Staci Brown]

yep, definitely a story teller in you girl! great story in poetic form. entertaining. sad though.

Faerie Blessings!

--faerie whisper (breaking the silence...)

[Heartless Breaker]

Sweetie, I love it! It's the picture of the Clueless Heartless. And the man, he seemed to be like a boy dumping the poor girl.
You know, I almost feel I might have felt that way before. I love your work. ^_^
Yoshi♫