AwarenessA Poem by Jei NacalabanWhen I say I want to die, it means that these are the moments when opening up my eyes makes my head burst out in flames, and a ticking time bomb has already replaced the dysfunctional heart right off my chest. When I say I want to die, it means that the demons over my head are currently having an intervention of how boring it is stuck inside a head of an unimaginative carrot in a human form - their time wasted on a lifeless soul. When I say I want to die, it means that taking a leap forward off a building is a blissful idea than moving on to a future I no longer have a part in. That somehow I only exist on the here and now, and whatever it is tomorrow, is a void I'm not looking forward being a part of. When I say I want to die, it means that I don't want sympathy from people I wanted to run away from. Encouraging words are like poison inside my skull, choking me up - somehow, I don't have any need for words, nor of anything for this matter. When I say I want to die, it means can I stand still for a moment and breathe. And maybe rest in peace. And let the depressing notion of not wanting to open my eyes swallow me whole, not looking forward to anything, nor wanting to remember anything, just wanting to be still. To be alone. © 2022 Jei Nacalaban
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Added on February 18, 2022 Last Updated on February 18, 2022 Tags: suicide, depression, sadness Author
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