The Day It Almost All Crashed

When you left my side

I could barely hide

The pain I felt inside

Burned like acid

The tears flooded

As I doubted

My self worth

And wished to return to Earth

I took the knife

Desiring to kill my life

I lost my kids and wife

I didn't want this life

As I pierced my skin

My head began to spin

My son needs me

I can't let him live without me

Looking back at that day

I'm happy I turned away

For I've got to live

Not only for me, but for him

Reviews

[A.A.Romanczuk]

You outsmarted Your pain...You went on...for the love of Your child...You didn't let him down...as a daughter of one who left...I can readily tell You how much it means to have that parent around....beautiful sentiments on a background of strength and pain

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. i knew it ... i just knew it ... above and beyond all else ... you're the quintessential perfect father that any boy could hope for ... (and it's not as if i needed evidence but your paternal instincts for dale are a bigger blessing than you can imagine) ... do fathers not have moments when they want to give up? ... of course they do ... but to realize that someone young and innocent who believes you needs you ... even more than you think you need yourself at a certain juncture ... is the ultimate realization ... i was shocked and horrified yesterday to learn of (and i'm being polite) utter misrepresentation of your paternal instincts ... it was done to me too, jeff ... in a different context but it was done ... and i know how it feels ... and i know how tough it is to survive when your brain has been fed that ... it is only the bravery you express in these words ... that'll take you through ... it's your boy's eyes ... that's it ... just remember them ... always, always, always ... and i know you do and i know you will ... and another thing, jeff ... today is not the last day that you can prove you were right ... you have time ... loads of time ... and you have a powerful pen and a powerful mind ... you know ... one very famous indian poet and author and filmmaker ... was in a similar situation ... and he had a daughter ... she is a good director in her own right now ... on her birthday ... he would present her a collection of short stories and poems ... and he became her hero ... even though they lived in different cities ... today she stays in the same city as him and when she's shooting a film ... guess who is always on the sets ... plan, jeff ... plan your response ... implement it with surgical precision ... i have done it ... and part 2 of my response is in progress ... i have made a mockery of all those who questioned my core ... not by making a mockery of them ... that never works ... but by channelizing the pain towards constructive action ... by pursuing excellence as earnestly as possible and deploying the rage to fuel my resilience ... i take very small steps each day ... but i do ... and it works ... i may not have love but i am close to my peace of mind ... real close ...

[Dushyant Thadani]

Another beautiful poem. Can get tears in any father's eyes if he is kinda emotional.

[Ashley]

aww it was so cute! i really liked it, and glad you didnt end your life. your son needs you! :)

[AlieahRose]

O MY GOODNESS...
MY HEART GOES OUT TO YOU IMENSLY...
I RESPECT YOU SO MUCH...
NOT ONLY FOR WRITING THIS...
BUT...
TO BE HERE TO DO SO...
YOUR SON HAS A FATHER...
AND YOU MADE SURE IT STAYED THAT WAY...
THIS IS TRULY TOUCHING...
YOU DID AN AMAZING JOB...

[emmah]

- oh this must have been tough to write - but you should be happy you turned away - the pain of your loss is incredible - and it must be debilitating and infuriating - but you have - found the light in your life - your boy - and when the right lady finds you (or you, her) - life will come a full circle - and you will witness - the integrity and correctness of your choices - in the integrity and correctness of the great man he will grow up to be!

[Crinkle°]

a very strong and intimate writing, Jeff...