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Dear Kenndy,

            It has been such a long time sense we have seen each other last. It must have been around the time of your engagement. Wow, that must have been two years ago? Time sure does fly. You and Clara were sickening, how much in love you were, I should have told you that, but I didn’t think it was appropriate. I hope you two are happy, I think you should be happy, you have worked so hard in your life, a little happiness wouldn’t kill you.

            Remember the time you had just gotten back from Iraq (the first time) and I was just in the middle of mid terms, but you came to my dorm demanding to go to that diner. You said that “the smaller the joint was the better the food had to be”, I tried to tell you that I simply had to study cause I had mid terms. You said that your big brother only comes back from war once and that it’s practically a holiday. Of course I went with you and we stayed at that crummy little diner until four in the morning playing that same song on the Juke-box, for two hours straight. First I have to tell you have terrible taste in music, but I have to say that was the best night in my life. I wish things could have gone better for you, but I hope your happy.

            You need to know that I did not hate you when you got your GED and left, I knew that you had to get out of that hell hole, and that the Air Force was going to be good for you. I knew the day that you packed for boot camp you weren’t going to leave me for good, you were going to come back, you weren’t going to leave me with our up tight never there mom, and our boozy dad. So don’t you dare eat yourself up about that, I liked the idea of my big brother flying planes and killing terrorists.

            I have a confession. Do you remember you Seether t-shirt?  The one you accused mom of steeling? The one we both looked for, for like five days; and you through the biggest fit but we never found it. I actually stole it. I needed it for the concert, you don’t understand you would have never lent it to me. And it was my size, it fit me better than it could ever fit you and I simply had to have it. Now you can’t be mad at me cause that was over six years ago. We were both in high school and I was a stupid little freshmen. If you really want it back you can have it, its in the shoe box on the top shelf in my closet.

            I don’t want you to eat yourself up about this one ok?… you remember my science project in eighth grade? I knew it was you who broke my potato gun. I knew the minute I saw it. I but you were so nice helping me fix it and you helped me complain about Dad breaking my potato gun, and how long I spent working on it, and didn’t Dad know that I worked so hard on it, that I couldn’t possibly be mad at you. The hole thing turned out ok anyway, I got the silver which wasn’t your fault, the damn thing was rigged anyway.

            You have to understand what it meant to me, when you took me to the comic book store for the very first time. The place was so delightfully cluttered and yet magnificent that I could hardly stand. All those comic books…wow… I can still smell them can’t you? Do you remember my first one? It was The Incredible HULK issue 4 and I believe yours was…issue 23 of the X-men and that’s the only reason I bought you X-men  comic books for the rest of your life.

            Now I know you must be very upset with me. And I was going to tell you, really I was. But….. I found out the day you told me you were engaged, and Clara was there. It felt so weird. I couldn’t tell Clara I was dying, I don’t know Clara…. I just wanted to tell my Big Brother and my best friend, who happened to be the same person. No one else was going to know,(besides the doctor and the lawyer.) I thought about it for a long time, but I couldn’t burden you, with your engagement and all. You would want to postpone it. I know you that’s what you would have done, and I know Clara she wouldn’t like that, she wouldn’t understand. She is a good person and all, I licked her I really did… I just …

Didn’t want it to be like that. I’m sorry I missed your wedding. But you would have known the instant I walked through the doors that I was sick, that I wasn’t myself. I needed to keep my distance, anyway, it was best for you and me. When I think of what you must have been thinking because I wasn’t there, I feel terrible. But you have to know it was for the best.  

            When you have kids, you have to read them your comic book collection, but don’t you dare let those little midgets touch mine! Don’t you censor there music either, even if you think Seether is wrong for them or anything…. It wouldn’t be right. Tell Clara, that I did not stay away because of her. I was going to stay away no matter what happened. There were so many things I wish I could have told you…. But here is a short list of things you need to know:

1.      My CD’s are in my suitcase….( I never did get that book case)

2.      I left my dogs at the neighbors house they think I am on vacation , don’t leave them to long they might get lonely.

3.      The key to the apartment is under the frog…. Which is behind the tree.

4.      All my jewelry is in the bathroom, there is about 100 dollars worth so DON’T lose it!

5.       You need to let the office know I quit, there is a letter of resignation on my desk.

 

That’s all I can think of…. Can you handle that? Cause if you don’t, ill come back from the dead and haunt you. You know I will…  Man, Kenndy, I’ll really miss you… and don’t you ever ever forget me.

 

 

 

 

Love always, even from the dead.

           Gerry.

 

 

           

 

 

           

Author's Note

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[unspokenguilt]

Aww...thats really sad!