9.29.2010

a poem for my ex fiance

"And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?" -Neyo  'So Sick'

I was in love once.

But I'm still young.

I can fall in love again.

But why do I keep wanting to go back to you.

This feeling's faded over time.

But it's still there though.

I just try to ignore it, every single day that I breath.

Maybe if I held my breath, the pang will go away.

Am I, or am I not over you.

Cause I still feel this love for you, I think.

Or is it a habit.

Old habits die hard.

I wish you would fade away completely.

So that I would stop wondering if you're okay, and how you are.

I think I have my closure, but now I'm not so sure.

It's almost been a year since we were together.

Holy s**t, it still stings a little.

A lot mostly.

I want to be over you, or with you.

One of the two.

 

Reviews

[Matthew Kult]

Hello Jessica,

I have been there, so hard to move past something that was an important part of our past. Makes it harder when you wish to continue it, but for whatever reason that isn't possible. A horrible feeling.

I do hope it gets easier.

Regards,

Matthew