Suicidal Thoughts

No I don't feel like this ..

Suicidal Thoughts

I can't deal with this pain

Can't deal with this misery

Can't deal with this shame

Can't deal with "so-called" Family 

Throwing dirt on my name

Everybody say they love me

But their hate feels the same

Maybe one shot to the brain

Will take this pain away

Maybe if i wasn't here 

Your life wouldn't have gone this way

Maybe if i pull this trigger

Everything would get better

They'll say i don't know 

what she was going thru

But i'm sad and i'll miss her

Just wish i could of kissed

Told her everything would be fine

Wish i would of said I LOVE YOU

Just one last time

But it's too late

The last word we exchanged were full of hate

Stuck in a cold, cold world

And it aint got no escape

Goin thru some things

And nobody's there to listen

Make me wanna grab a pistol

C**k it back 

AND JUST END IT 

Author's Note

No, I don't feel like this .. I am Not suicidal .

Reviews

[Blue Belle]

Good poem. Take Care! Stay Strong! :)

[Vria P Crow]

Dear JayTee, The Poet,

Let me begin by saying that this poem is daring. To be honest, I believe that we have all had suicidal thoughts because it is a temptation when something horrible has happened in our lives.

I understand that this is a fragile piece so I will respond as such :)

"Can't deal with "so-called" Family"

Families are obnoxious little buggers sometimes. We love them because they cared for us, love us, and so on. However, each child must face j u d g e m e n t. Acceptance is the core goal that is sought by the child. It is the parent that commonly wants to understand, but allows their own biases to mold their child into what they want them to be.

Primarily, I only wanted to hug you while I read this heartfelt poem. I just wanted to let you know that you are wonderful poet; you are filled with raw emotion.