A Poison Causing Madness

It's more like a blog I guess...taken from my Myspace page...

 

A Poison Causing Madness

 

Before I start I'd like to say thank you to those who read my blogs. It really makes my day when someone says “I read your blog”.This is more of a continuation of my previous blogs. I'm kinda writing a series on Truth. However, I feel like my blogs are beginning to make less and less sense lol. I must be going crazy... :P

 

Some do not hunger for truth like I do. Some “can't handle the truth”. I don't think I can handle it sometimes either but I still crave it. It often seems like the truth i have trouble with is what I keep running back to. I try to grasp the ungraspable. To bear the unbearable. I play with fire. If truth were stuck to a frozen pole in winter I'd probably lick it. (Remember the movie “Christmas Story”?) 

 

But I know everyone is not like I am. So I stay silent sometimes...not really silent so much as simple, without detail. Confession is letting the truth out. Some say confession is healing but is it always? Some feel it's better to remain ignorant. They are content not knowing...stuff. I must know everything. Or at least think I know everything.

 

I don't know if it hurts more for me to go after the painful truth or to keep silent. Confession is healing...but for some this would be poison, like a potion causing madness. So I sacrifice my tongue and I drink it myself. For you. And just now, as I am writing, I have realized what is aiding to my recent madness: I long for closure. And what is closure? Closure is settling with the truth. At least that is what it will be for me. I see what it is I hunger for. It is more than truth, it is closure.

 

In the meantime, while I hunger, I fellowship with madness. And what is madness? The dictionary defines madness as “the desire to manifest in your physical body destruction upon inanimate objects around you, for example; keyboards and lights.” (Ok thats not the real definition...and no..I haven't done that.)

 

 

-These are the Adventures of JayMo, sometimes physical, sometimes just in his head.-

 

-JayMo