Before The Ships Arrive

About the loss of ambition and the cynicism we naturally develop as adults

I'm incapable of feeling anything

All damaged but not yet broken

Staring out the window of the train

It's all frost-coated and monochrome

As I sketch my future on the window

On a canvas of grey

I know just how I used to be

And I apologise for my lack of a will 

Everything I see is sketched like a dream

There's nothing for my heart to beat for

Once bursting as like a quasar

Reduced to a trickling stream

Though I kept a place for you in my soul

But only for a nanosecond

My retinas were scorched, but I

Caught a microscopic glimpse of heaven

As the world turns I'll seek the calm

My grievances I've already buried

I'll accept this fate stoically

Until it's time to board the ferry

All smiles fall flat before me 

I'm not a misunderstood soul

Or a victim you need to save

Just indulge me and my sense of apathy

I just wanna sketch my melancholy future

On the windows of the train 

The platform beckons and I'm at peace

Although far from triumphant

I traded scorched heaven for an easy life

I have no need to ascend to your world

Or to have all of the world

All I want is to have survived

As the world turns I'll seek the calm

My grievances I've already buried

I'll accept this fate stoically

Until it's time to board the ferry

This word in my heart is surrender

But all in all I'm feeling far from morose

My dreams, I've left them all behind

All I that need, was always under my nose

As the world turns I'll seek the calm

My grievances I've already buried

I'll accept this fate stoically

Until it's time to board the ferry