familiarity...

my 
definition 
of real 
slowly erodes 
into apple-pie 
crumble} 

how to forget 
how to hold onto 
passion and its effects 
its strangulation 
and the way we perceive 
how it's all a pattern
a reflection 
of how and why 
there is logic and reason 
to 

snap back 
and realise what is true deception 
what is full and pure 
or at least what you make of it all 
when trying to become 
part of a circle 
an interlocking spiral 
of has-been and what-for and why-not 
to all of this confusion 
we settle for 

because 
dreams may be free but the follow-on 
makes destroying oneself 
ever harder 
to eclipse 

{to think upon 
with misplaced anger 
and regret