A Step Further

A poem about stepping out into my own element and releasing myself from the life that people want me to live and actually living the life that I desire for myself.

It's time to start making my own decisions in life

Stepping out from under my parents, to stop dealing with strife

Though the decisions I make may cut like a knife

Some filled with gieif others delight.

Though I cry behind closed doors, feeling trapped in my mind

Not having a voice here, but in who do I confide?

Are they unaware, ignorant or literally blind?

Not to know that their ways and actions clash within this time

This time period where true guidance is hard to find

We rely on something to lead us, a spirit, a voice, some sort of sign.

But where is my sign, where is my guidance?

Because I feel that the confusion has not yet subsided?

I hear all the voices that say what I should do

But who's life am I actually living through?

Is it my dream or is it yours that I am playing the part of today

Is it your path I'm walking or is it mine? Is this yours or my way?

I do all the things you direct me to do, but where do my dues pay?

In a sense, it's almost as if my happiness is last, and everything else is overlaid

This needs to get situated, because sometimes I am dismayed.

That my decisions will leave me laughed at, degraded, have me alone and faded.

It seems as if I am afraid to step out into my own element

Just to think that my decisions will leave everyone to be full of rage. . . only to vent.

At the end of the day, it does not matter, I have to do what's right for me.

I have to live the life I choose, making my own story a reality.

It's hard to break away from the life they feel is fit for me

But in the midst of all this worriment, I feel I've had an epiphany.

My conscience telling me to do what I should do, to make a difference, to make a stand.

To be my own person, to go for what I want, to crave my happiness, I strive, to demand

To be my own woman, to lend instead of grab at hands, to finally be my own fan, to be grand, To apprehend the true lessons of man, to understand that everyone isn't out to be my friend, To do for myself, and for others do what I can.

To live with excitement, to be an observer 

To do anything I can to keep taking steps further

Author's Note

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