I deserve it

I hate this feeling 

That grabs me 

And tucks at my emotions

                                                                             It does not let go 

Feeling depression sicking in 

And I just hurt

Standing still in my chest

A pressure I detest  

                                                                             and is hard to let go 

Tears start to built 

Like an army ready to strike 

But my eyes flicker and they fight 

The sensation to cry 

                                                                             I don’t want to be alone

Hungry for some love

Yearning for a touch

Feeling like a ghost

Not being seen or heard 

                                                                              Lost in a spiral of hopelessness

A pain I must endure 

For all the suffering

That I have caused

                                                                              Emotionless I stand by

I'm ready to try again

This thing they call love

                                                                              But I'm not dressing in white

"JAR"

March 29, 2011