Scared

That sense of not being in control of your emotions when you are falling in love

Is there something wrong 

cause my hands shake all day long.

Feeling the vein popping in my head 

on my neck veins grow to fast, 

i’m feeling the nervousness

i know i won’t sleep well.

Take a deep breath 

followed by a deeper one

exhale i tell myself 

but exhale is what i forget.

This will be the last one 

i can not continue on. 

My life has finally reach it’s point 

and i will never fall like this again. 

I can tell something is wrong 

can’t get a hold of myself, 

i keep telling myself to chill 

cause i do not want to get stuck taking a pill.

I feel my pressure rising 

i sense I’m getting dizzy again 

must i drink some hot tea

or maybe get something to eat.

I’m scared of this feeling now

i know that I’m falling in love 

This little crazy thing

should not make a person loose control

it should give you power 

not vanished it away 

But I’m scared 

Cause I’ve fallen in love

***Johnny A. Rojas

July 24, 2010

Author's Note

Words from the heart

Reviews

[just rose.]

I like the frenetic energy in this, that feeling of restlessness that has no other root but falling in love. What is it made of? Some say it's from when we're babies and have needs that must be met, and it's an echo of that, the urgency. Others say it's the same chemicals that make obsessive people obsessive. Or maybe a little of both. Either way, it has a certain quality of intensity combined with trepidation - they don't call it "falling" for nothing. You express it all here.