"Grandma"

Bases on my relationship with my grandmother.

I'll have to admit, I had built some resentment towards you,

throughout the years I had no connection with you,

But I want you to know, I do love you.

Even though it's not fulfilled love I wanted as a granddaughter,

But I know deep down, you have some memories that still ponder,

I still remember when I got off the bus, you and grandma Mae would be ready to embrace our hugs,

a memory I dearly held in, one that was dented in underneath the skin,

you had me wonder many nights, during prayers, why you had given up on us, specious I became, blaming on paranoid dreams.

some of me blamed it on the endurance of grief,

Grandma Mae had loved all of us,

I only cry at the fact of me getting older and the distance between us is becoming longer,

I can somewhat vividly see some type of memory when I last saw you,

Harsh words we had given, Exchanged,

No evil can bypass this past,

one connection we both share is believing in our maker, it's the only thing I cherish between us, only topic that I can write about us.

Sincerely,

your granddaughter,

Chelsea Mae Phillips