The Inner Pain

I lost a peice of me last year.. my best friend of 15 years... my sister...my confidant

Like a stroke part of be was left broken and torn;

It is such a shock I didnt have time to mourn.

Your loss was so sudden and unexpected;

I kneeled down and cried right where you rested.

I wish you were here to sit and talk with me while the world felt still;

Here without your presence has left me ill.

My tears flow and I have not much to say;

When I feel down, I just get down and pray.

Pray that God gives me strength to live without you;

Strength to give me joy when I'm feeling blue.

I know you would want me happy and whole;

I just cant help but feel as if I've been torn in my soul.

I take a deep breath and think why oh why;

All I can do is look at your daughter and sigh.

I am afraid to let another get so close to my heart;

How can I love, trust, live.. where do I start?

I'll never find a friend as I've found in you;

I just dont know if I can do this, I for once dont want something new....