You Thought

Just some words overflowing that had to meet the paper

When I was a child in my eyes you were like God, I wanted to be in your steps, my hand in yours.  I loved your smell, your talk, your walk.  There was no wrong you could do, you were mom.  As I grew older and started to learn about myself and life everything is seen in such a different light.  The love I have for you will always be there.  The person you are to be is always there.  The feelings change, the heart turns, the trust is less, I am made to live and learn to do things alone.  At least I feel alone,sometimes wondering why I cant have my hero back.  I ask God to come into my heart and keep me whole.  I dont believe I hold anything against you, its just as knowledge increases you see things for what they are.  You thought you could keep things the way they were, You thought you could make excuse after excuse and I was suppose to just understand.  I am not God and I realize you arent either.. You thought when you see me again, I would want to be in your steps, your arms.  I don't..I can love you from a distance and still live.. and be happy.   Its almost like I'm loving you through Gods heart, because I just feel his love....