Urges

 

I stopped cutting myself not too long ago

I've been strong enough not to

But I'm starting to slip

 

The urges get stronger and stronger each day

And I grow weaker and weaker with each urge

My parents never noticed, they don't really care

 

I slip away from reality

And sink back into fear

I'm depressed once more

I've never really been happy

 

I can't sleep at night, the urges won't let me

All I want to do is feel a razor slicing through my skin again

 

I'm not as strong as I thought

I can't resist for much longer

I'll give in and no one will care

 

I'm slipping away, unable to catch myself

I don't want to do it again

I'm tired of feeling so much pain

 

Blood leaving my body

Dripping like rain

Is actually comforting

In a twisted kind of way

 

I'm reaching out

Please don't let me slip

Take my hand and hold onto me

Don't let my urges take me over

 

The urges get stronger and stronger each day

And I grow weaker and weaker with each urge

Who's gonna care if my urges take over??

Reviews

[ruth]

it is sad that you once used to cut yourself,
though i myself don't do that, i wouldnt be able to relate to you, but i have tried to understand why alot of people cut themselves.
But how does cutting yourself relieve pain?
Isnt it in a way like making an excuse for the present pain, what i mean, the pain felt in real life problems?
Doesnt cutting oneself only cause more problems to a person?
these are the questions that haunt me....-_-
-ruth

[...MysteryGirl...]

This is an amazing poem that actually gets and explains the pain cutting puts you through. I can relate to this, but you have to do it for yourself... if you let the urge get the best of you... youll feel weak and weaker everyday, other then that amazing write.. this is my top poem about cutting ive ever read.

[r]

nice read and great poem....i can totally relate....all i can say is keep pushing and eventually you will succeed... yes i used to cut and i know how the withdrawl feels, reminds me of my poem withdrawl, if you ever need some1 to talk to im on here all the time....good luck in my contest and God bless

[Jemma]

i can relate to this.
But i think your problem is.
And you repeat it through the poem.
Is that you want someone to grab you. To hold onto you. To care. To give you attention.
I have suffered with this addiction for 5 years.
And I am only gonna say it once.
But you gotta get over it.
You gotta relize that its only you that can stop you from doing this.
You can't expect anyone to grab you if you fall.
You can't expect anyone to care.
If you really want to stop.
Then stop for you, no one else is gonna make you stop.
Get help. When you have an urg take yourself away from where ever you are and do something else.
Distract yourself.
just don't make excuses.
Don't try and get attention from poeple over it.
Don't think that anyone is gonna care.
Cause no one really does because no one can really understand.
Cutting is a real problem.
Other then that I thought it was a good point. I didn't like how you kept asking for people to notice. Or for people to care. For someone to grab you. But i think u kinda caught a glimps in this poem of what it is like to suffer this addiction.

[I'llPlayTheJuliet]

"I'll give in and no one will care"
I will care!!!!
Great poem though.
I relate allllllot....
I nearly gave in today,
pressed the rasor to my skin
then received a text
"I love you..."

[Mintwhiskers]

this is such a sad poem if it is real i wish i cld help. i dont know wat this feeling is like but this poem is kinda helping me understand
otherwise it is a great poem expressing so much emotion

[poemsforlife]

really great emotions and no doubt that it is hard sometimes :/

[EILEEN McGUINNESS]

I can empathise with you here as i too have cut myself a long time ago and watched the life drain out of me i think i wanted to disconnect the emotional and mental pain i felt by replacing it with physical pain, at the same time i also wanted to act as if i had control over my life and not depression which can take hold of you like a deadly disease consuming us daily.

The poem was a masterpiece and full of flowing lines which enabled the reader to see in to the writers mind of despair, the care free attitude had been enforced because absent parents thought more of providing for the family than offering love and developement in this torturous of times.

I am here for you always that is why i returned because of you there is nothing else for me on this site, did you know that? i hope you can understand how much i care about you.

[Aislinn Gryffin ((Ashes..]

i care. Great poem, by the way.

[The Wave]

i understand the topic itself is emotional, but somehow that emotion isn't strong enough in your own words.

i dont and have never cut myself willingly. but i can understand why a person would,
and know that you dont relieve physical pain, you take away from emotional. when your mind is occupied with physical pain, you are worried about the present and dont have time to reflect on the past.