Abandoned No More

For Steven

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

In a meeting where they discuss you

Like you aren’t sitting there

Your fate decided

Again and again

 

You a boy

Clearly understanding what they believe

you cannot comprehend

Quietly, charmingly submitting to your new placement

Again and again

 

You find your self trying

For a while

“Is this my home?”

“Is this where I belong?”

Soon the honeymoon is over. You rebel.

Again rejected. Sent away.

Your test proven

 

Thirty Five homes

One after another in your short years

You have seen more than many men

You have experienced more grief and rejection

Than an army of men

You a boy-man

 

Teachable, yet hardened by life’s bitterness

Valiant, yet somehow weakened

by the burden of abandonment

Charming and smart

Oh much smarter than you let on

You will keep that secret to yourself

Using your wisdom to gain emotional freedom

Again and Again

 

Sitting in that meeting

Across the table from those that knew you

only by reports written about you

Black and White introduction

To a boy

A new job

A boy to write more reports about

 

I remember the day your were born into my heart

I handed you a cookie

You searched my face

I let you

 

I wrote reports about you, privately crying

silently praying for you

As you struggled

I listened

 

Then the unexpected

You finally said

“Mother”

Author's Note

While working as a youth mentor I met and fell in love with a 14 year old boy. Abandoned at a daycare by his birth mother, he was placed in foster care and later adopted by a family that rejected the adoption after 4 years. His life was again in the hands of the state. His quest for home, acceptance and unconditional love of a mother was found in me. His 36th home.

Reviews

[NoneOfYourBusiness akaK..]

your beautiful heart imbues with the tenderest of rhythms this write of pure unconditional love~

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you are a remarkable lady and he is a courageous remarkable young man...finding each other was no coincidence..thank you for sharing such an intimate piece of work

[Patient Poet (Yos)]

That made me Cry ... really
If I needed more reason to understand why I love you , I found it here , in a story I never knew .. thank you for been so YOU