To Be A Mother

For Katheran Winner- 4th Place- To Your Children Contest

Like a boulder had been placed upon my
running path I encountered you for the first time.
A choice that would forever
change my direction.

 

Was I ready to be a mother?

 

First a question of reality you came

A medical miracle,
and as I watched my belly swell with your existance
I knew that it was truth.

 

The sweetness of your breath
intrigued and comforted me
as I held you to my breast
and fed us both.

 

Everything you touched and discovered
I took pleasure in
Watching you learn and grow
Every question you asked
Every picture you painted
I remember and cherish.

 

Peaceful angel sleeping in my arms,
I delighted at your little ways.
Perfect, curious, mischevious, obedient child.

 

The courage it must have taken to tell me

that your father "touched you" like that.

 

How I cried for you when you were hurt.
how I cried for your soul to be healed
from the monsterous pain you should have never felt.

 

I am so sorry Angel Girl.
I did not know.
I could not save you in time.
I am so sorry.

 

Fighting to protect you from the beast.
Moves we made together,
changing again the direction of life we knew.

 

Moving forward, forgiving,
working through the pains of deception.

Learning to Trust.
I love your loving heart.

Life's lessons bittersweet.

 

Strawberry blond, angel face.
Your own decisions and paths taken.
Still my sweet baby, my first born.
My forever image of you.

 

Longing for love and acceptance,
you now know the sweetness of a baby breath

upon your breast.

The joy you have given me is now yours.

The discoveries, and life lessons

yours to love or hate.

 

I wish I could take from you all the sorrow of your youth.
If I could I would replace each and every tear with only the joy,
but then you would not be the lovely woman you are today.

 

Compassionate.

Patient.

Greatful.

Loyal.

Beautiful.

Fiercly independent
and Strong...

Enough to be a mother.

Reviews

[Kent Bayburt]

A very sweet and caring drive into the memory lane of a well meaning parent, with advice about the life’s lessons-learned for the next generation, i.e. her now adult child. Wonderful.