To My Unborn Child: Part Two

I wrote you a letter
Through my fear
And now I write you this one
Through my tears
All of my anxiety
Has been morphed into pain
For I will never
Be blessed to mother you

In the midst of stress
From your absent father
From fear of publicity
Of the soul that grew within me
From the dreams
You wouldn’t allow me to achieve
I felt the pain in my womb
I felt a sinking sensation in my rib cage
I felt a pang in my heart

Blood ran down my legs
There was no more stress
There was no more fear
There was no more hatred
There was no more selfishness
There was only shame

You left me that day
I was never worthy of your blessings
This world wasn’t ready for your soul

I never wanted you
Now that I live without you
All I want is you

And I will never have you
I’m sorry, I have failed you

I love you
Trevor-Anthony Michael Pina
I am so sorry.

Author's Note

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