Heart Broken...

Passed Away...

Heart Broken...

My heart is broken,
My thoughts are ambushed with
overloaded emotions and guilt.

I need gorilla grip to hold it together
and a steel shield to block the onslaught
of overwhelming painful thoughts.

I want to turn back time to fix what is broken,
unfortunately life doesn't work that way and the
damage is done.

Time goes on, while I stand still dwelling in pain.
I am on the brink of chaos!!!

I want to die in the arms of the lord,
like my little brother died in mine.

I was never there when he needed me
and this time was no different.

I was never his hero,
instead he was mine.

Cal-gone take me away,
I'm in extreme pain and the guilt is tearing me
apart, like a pack of wolves feasting on there prey.

I am angry,
I have yet again failed him,
I am lonely,
I am miserable,
I am dying inside,
I am heart broken!

Author's Note

My brother passed away 5/20/16
R.I.P GRW I♥U!!!
All glory to God...

Reviews

[Sapientiam]

I'm so sorry for your lost, though, I know you may have heard it a lot... You know, my twin sibling died years ago. So young and the death was unexpected. Because we were identical, I felt as if half of my soul had perished as well. Well, technically that would be right... But, I understand how that lingering pain can just eat away more and more until there is nothing but hollowness. I don't even know why I moved on. Yet, it is these types of things that ought to make us stronger. Of course there is guilt, but we cannot hold on to the past. They are nothing but burdens. We have a choice whether to become destroyed by our circumstances or let it refine us so that we can lead much better, joyful lives. No matter how broken you get, Just remember that the Lord knows your pain.

[Jamestown]

Thanks for checking it out and your kind words, b-blessed!

[Miss Sharon]

Oh my...I am so sorry for you loss! I can feel your deep emotional pain and I too and heartbroken for you. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Lean on Him....this was not your fault. ~Sharon

[Jamestown]

Thanks for checking it out and your kind words, b-blessed!

[Thomas Fitzgerald]

Deeply sorry for your news, a most telling and emotional piece that carries one away, x x

[Jamestown]

Thanks for checking it out and your kind words, b-blessed!

[Ruth]

I am so very sorry for your loss Jamestown, truly am...all love and light to you friend...

[Jamestown]

Thanks for checking it out and your kind words, b-blessed!

[Josie E. Cook M. A.]

Very sad and I am sorry for your loss.
Painful and gripping emotions,
I often find writing a tribute piece of poetry very comforting and I hope you did, too.
My hope is the pain will pass quickly for you!
Wonderful reflection here on your feelings and your loss.

[Jamestown]

Thanks for checking it out and your kind review, b-blessed.

[Josie E. Cook M. A.]

You are welcome!

[Sami Khalil]

Wow. It is painful to read this and also not have tears in the eyes. May God give you strength to endure. A marvelous tribute to a beloved brother...

[Jamestown]

Thanks again my friend, I appreciate it, b-blessed!

[Sami Khalil]

You are most welcome...:)..............

[Shannon]

First the loss - deep sympathy.

The choice to integrate slogans an interesting one, sets it apart from others in this vein.

[Jamestown]

Thanks for checking it out and b-blessed!

[andrew mitchell]

sorry for your loss james.

[Jamestown]

Thank you, b blessed!

[Shabeeh Haider]

This is so sad. I am really very sorry for your loss.
At times we blame ourselves but death is something being our control.
May his sweet memories always live with you

[Jamestown]

Thanks for checking it out and your kind words, b-blessed!

[Lydia Shutter]

First of all, let me say I am sorry for your loss. May your brother's memory be a blessing. The depth of emotion expressed here is wonderful. The loss of a loved one brings up all sorts of feelings. Know that you did the best you could for your brother and I am sure he knew you loved him. I wish you the strength to get through the quicksand of grief. Lydi**

[Jamestown]

Thanks for checking it out and your kind words, b-blessed!

[Nisreen]

I am sorry for your loss James
I am pretty sure you were an amazing brother
As you have always been such a good friend

May god grant you the patience to go through this in peace
And may your brother lie in your heart for eternity with much light and good memories
I hope your pain goes away ......

You are not alone .... i am here ...... as your friend

[Jamestown]

Thanks for checking it out and your kind thoughts, i appreciate you:)
B-blessed!

[Nisreen]

I wish You a Pretty great day