Heart Broken...

Passed Away...

Heart Broken...

My heart is broken,
My thoughts are ambushed with
overloaded emotions and guilt.

I need gorilla grip to hold it together
and a steel shield to block the onslaught
of overwhelming painful thoughts.

I want to turn back time to fix what is broken,
unfortunately life doesn't work that way and the
damage is done.

Time goes on, while I stand still dwelling in pain.
I am on the brink of chaos!!!

I want to die in the arms of the lord,
like my little brother died in mine.

I was never there when he needed me
and this time was no different.

I was never his hero,
instead he was mine.

Cal-gone take me away,
I'm in extreme pain and the guilt is tearing me
apart, like a pack of wolves feasting on there prey.

I am angry,
I have yet again failed him,
I am lonely,
I am miserable,
I am dying inside,
I am heart broken!

Author's Note

My brother passed away 5/20/16
R.I.P GRW I♥U!!!
All glory to God...

Reviews

[Sapientiam]

I'm so sorry for your lost, though, I know you may have heard it a lot... You know, my twin sibling died years ago. So young and the death was unexpected. Because we were identical, I felt as if half of my soul had perished as well. Well, technically that would be right... But, I understand how that lingering pain can just eat away more and more until there is nothing but hollowness. I don't even know why I moved on. Yet, it is these types of things that ought to make us stronger. Of course there is guilt, but we cannot hold on to the past. They are nothing but burdens. We have a choice whether to become destroyed by our circumstances or let it refine us so that we can lead much better, joyful lives. No matter how broken you get, Just remember that the Lord knows your pain.

[Jamestown]

Thanks for checking it out and your kind words, b-blessed!

[Nini]

I am so terribly sorry for your loss. Your words brought tears to my eyes as I lost my cousin not long before you lost your brother. I can feel the pain in your words. I'm praying you find peace

[Weeping willow]

Sorry for your painful loss of your brother,that kind of pain is hard to bear;-

[Nadia Gerassimenko]

I am so sorry you lost your brother. I can't imagine the burden your heart must feel. This is a very heartbreaking poem. I wish you much strength to heal from within.

[mou]

so sorry for your big loss..for the first time I visit your page...and yes sometime a guilt caused by the most dear one ,is the hardest to wipe out..still a true repentant soul is always listened..

[MsJewel]

I'm so sorry for your loss James. My sister passed away last year and I felt and still feel like a piece of my heart went with her. God bless you and your poetry my friend.

[Ayushi Beura]

I'm really sorry to what happened ...this poem has sadness in all its varied forms.
In your writing I could feel the traumatic events.
I am just speechless, how to give a grand salute to you for this outstanding work.
it is so emotional
You are talented, strong, and doing well to be able to cope with such a terrible thing.

[Jamestown]

Thanks for checking it out and b-blessed!

[Jill Cobb]

Wow! Really moved by this one. I'm so sorry for your loss.

[Jamestown]

Thanks for checking it out and b-blessed!

[E G TEN]

GOD has always the answer, for he is always good
Like you said. Keep up the Faith my friend. I'm just
A message away if you you need anything. EG.

[Jamestown]

Thanks for checking it out and your kind words, b-blessed!

[Ardra]

may god bless his soul and cant imagine the loss of your sibling...
it would be soul shattering isn't it..
sending healing to you...
your bro soul will be happy if he knows that you are doing fine, then it becomes easy for them to make the journey to the light :)

[Jamestown]

Thanks for checking it out and your kind words,
B-blessed.

[K.M]

I am so sorry for your loss. Death is hard, and I am sorry that this happened. Everything will turn out all right though, because families are forever. and you will get to see him again after this life.

[Jamestown]

I agree, thanks for checking it out and b-blessed!