The Haunting

I wish I could see you
I wish you were here
I hope you don't hate me
But I carry this fear
I didn't ask to be branded
I didn't mean to fall
I just miss you
And I wish for a call
I don't know if you'll read this
I don't know if you care
I just feel lost
Like I'm nothing in nowhere
I don't know if I'm cursed
I don't know what to do
I try to move on
But I'm haunted by you
The ghost of my friend
I miss painfully
Do I get to regret?
Do I get to grieve?
My bed is a coffin
My home is a tomb
The building a graveyard
Lit by the moon
An endless reminder
I stepped too far
The skeleton nightmares
Reveal my scars
I turn off the lights
So there isn't a clue
You might turn a corner
And tell me it's true
That the sunlight won't burn me
If I step outside
Trust in the world
And no longer hide
From the monsters that stalk me
In the back of my mind
Whispering deathly,
I "should be left behind"
The specters of then
Apparitions of now
I've lost my reality
My vision's a cloud
Voices saying, I "did the right thing"
Choirs of demons starting to sing
Cryptids coming to life in the dark
It's so hard to breathe
I can't feel my heart
How do I move on
From what's part of me now?
Was I compartmentalized?
Do I make a sound?
The questions that suffocate
Day after day
Is it all still true?
Will I be okay?
Set me free from your hex
My spirit's been caught
I am desperate for peace
Peace from your haunt