Looking In The Mirror

Hard times of being transgender.

The hardest part of waking up is seeing the real me

Looking at my reflection tears me to pieces

Seeing what I have to see everyday

Knowing the outside of me is nothing like the inside

The inside is who I truly am,

Who I truly want to be.

It isn't easy going through the day feeling empty

Like I can't even be myself with anyone

I tell myself tomorrow will be better,

Thinking to myself that I'll always just be a "girl"

No matter what surgery,

No matter what supplements,

I'll always be someone I loathe completely.

I'll never be who I really am

Never will I see the person I should've been

It's the worst feeling; my worst nightmare

Sometimes I hate getting out of bed,

I hate the fact I have to go out in public

Trying to fool everyone,

When they're really not being fooled at all

Everyone knows, they can see right through me

They see right through the female features

All I want is to be able to live the life I've always wanted

I want to be able to look at myself with out tear-filled eyes

Maybe someday a time will come when I'll  be okay,

When the hardest thing I do won't be looking in the mirror.

Author's Note

I'm an FTM transgender.
please no judgement on that just opinions about the writing?

Reviews

[hotdog12]

this is amazng like hot dogs.....

[Jaiden]

it means someone was born the wrong sex. I was born a girl but I am becoming a guy. I felt extremely uncomfortable in my life as a girl.

[H0P3L3$$ !N$@N!TY(Luna)]

Idk what transgender is... so, i might sound dumb but i don't.. but i lik the right it is really great

[sarah]

Well I am not transgender but I feel this way almost every day of my life. Like a fake, this is really well written.

[Wondering Mind]

not for me to judge.
It happens on different levels of the who and what we are. You've expressed well the dilemma.