Fearful Obsession

Just something I was feeling.

It's hard to live my life to the fullest,

When I know we're all just wasting away waiting to die

When waking up each morning is just luck

Anything can happen, in a split second

And in that moment you realize your luck ran out

But then again maybe it didn't

Living itself is the hardest challenge given to you

It could be easier to give in to your fate

Since that's what death is

Every single persons' fate

It's sad to say this is my greatest fear

I think about it constantly and worry "what if.."

What if my last day breathing is this very day

This very moment

What if I never get to see bigger things

I never get to become anything

Only a memory in everyone's mind

This becomes not only a fear, but an obsession

How can someone be so afraid of something

And at the same time thrive for it?

It stares at me, haunts me daily

Thoughts always race about the "easy way out"

What it's tend to be called

I wonder if the ones who do it..

If they finally find happiness and freedom

Freedom from the harsh world, as we all know it

It's more than an allusion, It's death.

Author's Note

I don't know about this one?

Reviews

Sometimes I wonder, what's the point?
If we're all going to die soon anyway.

But it's thoughts like that that can really mess a person up.

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. life is very challenging ... feeling suicidal is an affliction ... almost everyone i know has felt suicidal at some point or the other ... me the most ... but that's the time when we actually get to know that entire list of things going wrong ... and it's an opportunity to fix them ... dying only hurts the people we love and that too ... every day for the rest of their lives ... that's my take on the life and death of humans ...