Deep Down Inside

Dealing with being Transgender

I wake up feeling lost and alone every morning

Thinking maybe today is the day I'll become me

Maybe I'll truly smile for the first time

That never seems to be the outcome

I try my hardest to bear through the struggle

The struggle of school and ignorant people

It's easy to say you don't care what others think

But it's impossible to mean it

The stares, the name calling, the "jokes"

It all tends to get to you after awhile

Deep down, where you store your worst fears

Where you store your inner most pain

The place you hide well from others

It all comes out, all at once

There's no stopping it anymore, and it's too much

Too much for people to take in

They don't know how to help you

Because I can't even help myself

It's hard to get sympathy, when I'm misunderstood

I know there's happiness out there somewhere

I'm just beginning to wonder if it'll ever cross my path

If the lump in my throat

And the tears down my cheek

If they'll ever come to an end

That'll be when I can finally look to a brighter future

And not hurt constantly, deep down inside

Author's Note

how is it?

Reviews

[Looouise]

They don't know how to help you
Because I can't even help myself - those two lines speak the truth, and it's pretty powerful. There's no criticism towards other people not helping, rather it's an acceptance. I like that, simply because there is no criticism of other parties.

I know there's happiness out there somewhere
I'm just beginning to wonder if it'll ever cross my path - I also like these two lines here. Again, there's the acceptance of happiness out in the world - yet there's doubt that it's ever going to grace the path of the narrator.

I like the honesty in this, I really do. :]

[H0P3L3$$ !N$@N!TY(Luna)]

i think its really great, i want to go read now so... yeah :)

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. brilliantly written and very powerful ... this world is a crazy place ... most times ... most people ... don't get anything ... we have no option but to be brave ...