15.

15 you would be, if you had, had a chance to live.

15 you would turn today, if Satan hadn’t taken you away.

15 years ago you were born but never lived.

I never had a chance to know you.

You never had your chance to grow.

It pains me to see my mother on this day,

It pains me to think of how different it would be,

If you were here right now.

I’d have the sister I’d always wanted,

One closer to my age,

We’d share all our secrets,

I wouldn’t put flowers by your grave.

We’d raise our kids together,

We’d share all our memories,

Instead I’m here alone,

Left with nothing but a what if.

Reviews

[BeyondObvious]

I'm so sorry for your loss :-(

"I never had a chance to know you.
You never had your chance to grow"

These lines have some relevance in current scenario as it bespeaks the mortality and shortness of life. I love this poem very much as I have the same pain. I lost my papa when I was in a COMFORT ZONE. I was a leech like embryo clinging to the Endometrium of my mom's uterus. U wrote it beautifully. Kudos to u

[Bexfinch]

Nice poem I sense some bottled up longing aqnd anger and its nice that you wnet through writing

[Morrigan Nicole]

Reminds me of, well, myself. I was a twin, but my sister did not make it. She was deformed and I was left with kyphosis and lupus. A twisted back and an auto immune disease. The thought is sad, yes, but I look at the world in a different way. We believe in reincarnation and I have got to tell you that my little brother and I could not have been closer in any way, looks and all, even if we had been born real twins. If my sister had been reincarnated it would be him without a doubt. Love you bro, the troublemaker that you are!

[MoriartyMesa]

Something that makes me smile about this, is that it can apply to any time. It just sort of remains like blowing kisses on the wind. The flow was easy and sorrowful, it took me a moment to read this again.

[Trusting]

Oh... this is....something. Has the heart right there on the cliff, huh? But, if a child died when he or she was born they'd go to Hevan 'cause they did not know about such a God or devil. So don't be sadden whenever you have a 'what if'.

[emman]

A work of realism. Very Good!

[Suditi]

Really sorry for your loss Jenn. :(

A heart crushing write. Gives me goosebumps.
You have a way with words. Beautifully written.

[Pax]

sad, indeed.
a pain of losing someone this deep
and left with nothing but a what if.
sometimes life takes what we wanted the most
nice write my friend.

[Whales]

Wonderful.

[0AudreyClaire0]

This is really sad but you did a great job.
-Aud