Today..

Stabbing my own pale skin,

What kind of messed up world do we live in?

I hate my life, I hate everything in it..

Clamping my tongue so I cannot scream it.

Why am I so bloody worthless?

Why is the standard so close to perfect?

I deserve all my pain.

I truly am the one to blame.

Reviews

[Mockingbird]

this person sounds like she's in the middle of an anxiety attack. the desperation comes through. she blames herself when she shouldn't. she's hurt. you don't deserve your pain. you just have to learn to cope with it or let the ones who care about you the most help you get through this. a cry for help. great poem.

[Sunflower]

I can relate to this, very good write

[Wendy Seames Garner]

No one deserves pain! We are always so much more critical of ourselves than anyone else. Maybe we should take the focus off ourselves and put in into doing things to help others - that could only work to boost our self-esteem.

[dillonjensen]

Pain is often hard to write about, or express in some way, shape, or form, but you did it quite nicely here. I think pain is an important part of life that everyone goes through, and yes I did say part because I'm assuming people feel pain more than once. When I read this, I had to reread it to fully grasp the concept and it made me think of another poem, that being One Ship Sails East by Ella Wheeler Wilcox. The last lines of that poem really make me relate to this one...."Like the winds of the sea are the waves of time as we journey along through life, 'tis the set of the soul that determines the goal, and not the calm or the strife." Things might be bad right now, but honestly didn't your ancestors have it much worse then you? Dry your tears, keep your chin up, and keep grinding my friend.

[RachelKim]

I am guessing we all experienced somewhat of your pain..but you know what?? We're stronger than this!! We can get through it! We have no reason to be insecure! We have all of our limbs, we can see, we can speak. Honestly..there is nothing wrong with any of us. There are millions of people who are going through a hell lot worse than we are. Forget the pain. Forget the isecurity. Forget the judgement. We have all wasted to much of our life thinking of that. I have spent to much of my life thinking of that. And later in our lifetime..we will regret ever feeling insecure or judged..because it dosent matter. No one is standered yet no one is perfect..yet we are all perfect...it all depends what your defenition of perfect is.

I totally failed at this pep talk.. I am sorry..

[Octob3r Star]

...a great introduction into a great piece which hopefully you'll write. If not, count me in! ; )

[ba_mcfarlane]

Painful reading, painful writing, honest and right there, to a fault. This is worthy if only for the courage shown.

[Renée]

Oh luv...Great Expression .... but tell me...would you talk the same to a friend? I bet not....Perfection is unattainable and soOooOo boring... I think ( ;

[Elaenor Aisling]

Perfect is the impossible standard. Believe me, I've tried to reach it, and ended up very screwed up. it's those who set the standard who are to blame. Life is never worthless. YOU ARE NOT WORTHLESS. Always remember that.

[Extant]

How horrible society makes us feel, and how we find the only escape possible; our own destruction because we are told everything is our fault. But it isn't always, and no one, including you SuicidePact, is worthless.
"Why is the standard so close to perfect?"
Because humanity is obsessed with being what it never can be, instead of accepting the splotched beauty all around.

[Kiari Sabon]

i have felt like this a lot i love the write