Remodel my life

Reach inside of me and remove all that is wrong.

Hopefully you’ll find it won’t take very long.

You’ll find all the hate I carry towards everyone I’ve ever met,

and the despair i suffer due to the loss of my pet.

Take out the sins that I have committed,

and all the mistakes that I have admitted.

Remove all the self pity,

Take it all, from deep down within me.

Delete all those horrible memories,

and take all of those “I can’t be’s”

I want to be better, I want to be strong.

I want to know the difference between right and wrong.

Author's Note

I want to be different; I want to be rid of my hate.

I want to start my life fresh, but somehow I need to get over all the wrong people have caused me, it's going to be a long process but I want to change for the better, so if that means I have to forgive, I am going to try my hardest.

Reviews

[emmajoy]

Your poem has finely metered cut and thrust, is sad and compelling; you go place to place and back and end up going forward .. and that's what matters .. not living past where nothing's alterable. There's a wee myth that if a smile travels forward it goes around the world and back again; it's a long time coming around but by that time you're wrapped in it. So, guess you have to smile. I am .. come join me! :)

[WinterIce<3]

this is an amazing poem I don't know where to start so many things good to say about this poem :)

[Chris]

Your note is the second stanza...So many, many lil hurts we feel and deal... all to somehow be - more. Being ourself is way more than hard enough for most.

[Lumière Dé..]

AH, this is amazing! I don't know where to start.

[dontwakeme]

Good strong beginning, lost me toward the middle...:/

[Droll Prole]

Cool, I struggle with this too. Nice to see it articulated! Keep up the great writing.

[Wretched Knight]

Very good. Its nice to see that you are consciously trying to take the negative parts/people out of your life and to only allow positivity in. We should all do that.

[The White Wolf]

This was very raw. I think expressing what we want, throwing it out there, and searching for the answer, are all good things. Change ain't easy but it is worth the happiness and freedom it brings. Travel well, my friend.

[Wendy Seames Garner]

A passionate poem of self reflection. Yes, forgiveness is important. Remember, forgiving is not forgetting, it is allowing yourself to move on without the hate. You can't live with hate inside, hate does nothing, but destroy things. You can do this, I forgave the man who killed my daughter.

[Richy Moon]

Change is hard, but this wirtings a champion. I like how you said you're goals and said how you'd achive them without listing them. :)

[Ken Simm.]

I get the feeling you know how and what to do. You have expressed this so well.