I instantly open my eyes and I notice everything is black. I
smell something tainted like the aroma of rotten flesh in the air. I don’t know where I am or why I am here. I
just know that wherever here is, is not a good place. I try to lift my head,
but something is stopping me. I feel like I’m strapped down to a cold metal
table. Suddenly, a bright light appears
and quickly vanishes. I’m blinded by the flash and I can’t see anything. I hear
a shrill screech that leaves a buzzing sound in my ears, and I feel a rugged
object touch the back of my head and dig deep as it scrapes down my neck and
along my back. I hear a large burst exploding behind me, and suddenly the whole
room goes silent. I begin to hear a hair-crawling grinding noise beside my
right ear. My arm starts to sting, and all of a sudden the pain dwindles away
and I begin not to feel my entire arm. Slowly, I regain my vision. I can only gaze
upward, right at the ceiling, but there is something unusual about it. The
ceiling looks like it’s made out of a jagged concrete, but it is sprayed with a
dark red in some areas. I hear a voice; it’s a low, stiff voice. It’s a man’s
voice, and he is just laughing"laughing in, what someone would think, the
cruelest laugh. I hear the voice getting closer to me. Within seconds, a man’s
face hovers over my head. It seems he is not staring at me, but rather through
me. He has a white mask, symbolizing a doctor’s mask, over his nose and mouth.
He has dark, black hair, but grey facial hair and he looks to be around 50
years old. He extends his wrinkled hand behind my head and I hear an abrupt
snap. I feel a relaxed sensation on my neck, and I realize that I can now move
my head around freely. I gently lift my head, burning an image so terrible into
my eyes. On the other side of the dark lit room, there are several bodies
hanging, three without heads, and others without limbs with a puddle of dried
blood underneath them. I turn my head and look at the other wall, there’s a saw
covered in blood, followed by blood sprayed on the walls. There is a wooden
table beside the saw. On the table were severed limbs off of the bodies.
Several hands, arms, legs, and feet are lying on the table. Next to the limbs
is a transparent tank of water, faintly discolored by blood. Inside the tank is
something that looks like a human's internal organs floating at the top. Out of
the corner of my eye, I notice something. I tilt my head just slightly to get a
better view. It’s an arm lying on a surgeon table beside me. I see it, the
perfect outlining of the skull tattoo I have on my arm. Out of disbelief, I
guide my head towards my shoulder. It’s not there, nothing is there. My heart begins
to drop, not knowing what is happening to me or what is going to happen to me.
The old guy snorts to get my attention as he sits down in an old metal chair
beside me. He starts to tell me why he does what he does. He says that it all
started when he was my age, mid-twenties. He had a wife who stole his heart. He
loved her more than anything. They lived together in their tiny downstairs
apartment on the edge of town. One day, he came home, roses in hand because it
was their two year anniversary, and he found her dead. His voice came to a
whimper. He says that she was just hung there in the middle of the small living
room, strung up to the ceiling with a rope and a chain. Her face, cold and
blue, was lying on her shoulder, lifeless. Her clothes were stained red from
the blood dripping from her throat. He quickly lifted her off of the rope and
chain and rested her on the black couch. He walked over to the table, and
noticed a note. As he read the note, he began crying, and it soon became
laughter. As he puts it “She left a note, humor as it was, written with her own
blood. She wrote that she hated me, that she wanted to die. I walked into the
kitchen and grabbed a knife. I walked over to her and looked at her motionless
body, staring at the indention of the chain on her neck. I kneeled down and sliced
the knife through her neck to get rid of the chain mark. The pain inside grew
to pure joy. I don’t know why, but the sense of torture excited me. A few
months later, I found myself walking down a road late one night. There was a
lady, young and cheerful, walking about a block in front of me. I began to walk
faster to catch up to her. Once I caught up to her, I asked her for directions
to a part of the town. She said she could show me how to get there. We began to
walk and I noticed she had the brightest smile on her face. I became furious at
the fact that she was so happy. She told me that her boyfriend asked her to
marry him that night. She, of course, said yes, and she was just on her way
home from his house. She told me that we could cut through an alley to save
some time. As we were walking down the dark alley, she asked me if I had anyone
in my life. I reached for her and I slammed her head against the brick wall. I
began to bash her face against the cold concrete of the alley, blood pouring
from her head. I couldn’t help but laugh. I bent down towards her and took out
a knife, I told her that she would feel the same way my wife felt. I began to
cut her young fingers off, one at a time. When I was done, I stood up and left
her there. I began my journey back home. On my way back home, thinking about
what just happened, I realized that torture and human mutilation gives me that
joyous humor"the one that my wife must have felt. Tearing apart limbs and
dismembering bodies just gives me the absolute pleasure, something that she
couldn’t give me.” With that, his voice fades off. He quickly stands up and
walks over to the other side of the room. I hear him whisper, “I hope you get
some pleasure out of this yourself. I’d hate to see you suffer while I get all
the pleasure. Well actually, I’d rather get all the pleasure for myself.” He
turns around with a saw in hand and I hear the same laughter as before"the laughter
of murder, the laughter of death. I wake
up, dazed and puzzled. I don’t know what happened"all I know is I am here, I am
alive. I look up, the guy has disappeared. I hear a faint voice coming from the
other room. It must be him getting ready to put an end to me. Suddenly, I hear
a gunshot and the bang of an explosion shatters throughout the room. A cloud of
dust begins to fill the room. I hear someone getting closer. A person covered
in a bodysuit of armor appears. He comes closer and takes off the straps
holding me down. He tells me to get up, so I stumble upwards. He gives me a
hand and tells me to run. I begin to run, not knowing where I am going. I
cannot see anything, the room is dark. I come to a door and I try opening it.
It is jammed, so I kick it and it loosens. I push it open and I find myself
outside. It is dark and wet. I look around, there is nothing in sight. There
are no vehicles or houses or buildings in the surrounding area. I begin walking
down the street trying to decide what to do. A black car slowly pulls up behind
me. It stops. A person opens the back door and yells at me to get in. I have no
other choice but to get in the car. I enter the car and the driver begins to
drive. I am in the back of the car with another man. He gives me a folder and
tells me to examine the contents inside. I slowly open the folder, looking at
the paper labeled CLASSIFED. I begin to read the first paper, the title listed
at the top: Living Operational Human
Machines. I look up at the guy’s greyed face. He begins to speak, “You were
captured by the government. You are a part of a program the government began.
The government hires killers; the killers mutilate the bodies, and give the
limbs and organs to the program. The limbs and organs are used in experiments
and research for machines. These machines operate at the help of human limbs
and organs. We are the anti-LOHM, an underground organization against the
government program. Whatever the man told you were all lies. You are safe. We
will protect you.” I ask where we are going and he tells me the safe house. As
we drive, I continue to read the papers. The papers explain the program. The program was created four years ago. The
government wanted to experiment with human machines. I didn't really understand
what the guy meant about human machines. I turn to the next page. It has
multiple pictures on it. When he said 'human machines,' he literally meant it.
One picture showed a human intestine used for piping in some type of liquid
transferring machine. The next picture showed a human heart, pumping away and
somehow powering a machine. The last picture showed a human brain inside a
machine sending electrical signals to the parts of the machine. I don't know
what to think. I must be in a messed up dream. After what seems like an hour,
we arrive at a building. It is in a suburb of a large city, hidden out of sight
by the run down, moss-infested apartments around it. We step out of the vehicle
only to be neutralized by the wind-chilled, musky air. We walk on the cracked sidewalk
leading up to the building. The giant wooden doors open with two burly men with
guns in hand on either side. I step into the aged building, following the men.
Inside, I look around and it becomes clear that it is a ran-down apartment
building. In the center of the room was still the cluttered service desk with papers
scattered and its ringing bell topped with a layer of dust. I turn my head and
see that on the other side of the large room are metal tables and cushioned
chairs lined up as if it were a lobby area. The men tell me we are going to go
see the man who was in charge, and they tell me to follow them down one of the
wallpapered hallways to the left. We gradually walk down the hallway, and turn
right onto another hallway. After walking down the rest of the hallway, we come
to a door that is still labeled as ROOM 186. One of the guys opens the door and
I walk in. I notice there is a short, middle-aged man, standing by the side
wall, staring out the window. He tells me that he wants to show me something
that is out of the window. I walk over to the window and he hands me a pair of
old-fashioned binoculars that he had in his hand. I put the binoculars up to my
eyes and squint through them to look out of the window. Unexpectedly, I hear the
door slam shut and someone pushes me down. The men begin to grab me and
constrain me into a chair, facing the opposite side of the room. I begin
yelling, but the men do not react. They handcuff me to the chair and tie my
legs. The man who was looking out the window walks in front of me and stares
down at my face and starts laughing. He tells me that they were lucky they
found me. He explains that the real Anti-LOHM tried to break me out, but they
managed to find me walking down the street before the Anti-LOHM were able to
rescue me. He says that it is over"that there is nothing else I can do. As
sweat drips off of my forehead, I hear the door creak open and shut behind me.
Then I hear it"the same laughter as before"the laughter of murder, the laughter
of death.