An Honest Introspection Part 2.

So I’ve been thinking more, and I’m not sure the first part of this writing was accurate. When her and I are together, I don’t act like this, or at least not nearly as bad. I don’t worry so much. Don’t stress so much. Don’t stalk so thoroughly. And even now, I’m not so worried about what she’s going to do. I wonder if it’s less an issue of mistrust, and more a desire to be close, to feel like I’m part of her life even though I’m so far away? I don’t follow her around and dig through her s**t when I’m happy. I do it when I’m lonely, and it brings me a feeling of closeness and relevance.. It makes me feel like even though I’m so far away, I’m still there and I still matter. Out of sight out of mind is a fear, not because I worry what she will do, but because I worry I’ll be forgotten..