Deadly Crash(Written 9 years ago about an ex)

starving for affection from a heart made of ash...

I've been starving for affection

But your heart is made of ash

I have lost all sense of direction

Because of the day of that deadly crash

 

But I am yearning for your presence

Only to find that you had died

I am learning from this sentence

Because I no longer hold you inside

 

And just when I thought I needed you most

The trust I finally found for you was denied

Just when I needed to feel you here so close

You were never there' you suddenly start to hide

 

Just when I feel comfortable you push me away

Than all of a sudden our friendship is destroyed

Than you come back and want to work it out' so you say

But my heart has no room for you when all you do is avoid

 

My heart is dead and now so are you

Your heart is nothing but ash

And now i have realized your nothing new

I blinked and it was over within a flash

 

And you are right

we have both changed

I am done with this fight

This has become estranged

 

 

Jackie Gunnin

August 26^th, 2008

Author's Note

about an ex who I got caught up with all through high school. she was there and gone a lot all through that time