No One Could Ever Take Your Place

When you can't forget someone, and that someone to you was your everything.

 Today I woke up with you heavy on my mind -- it's nothing new. I thought of the first time we'd kissed, and how the entire world suddenly had meaning. I thought of the precious, flowing fountain of wonder you awoke in me; the way you made me feel; the way you placed me on a pedestal and loved me unconditionally like you did. I think of you today, my body quivering, because no matter when, no matter where, no matter how, no matter what... no one -- and I mean no one -- could ever take your place.

Today I walked alone. I went to our special place to think of you -- it's nothing new. I felt a warm breeze brush against my face as I sat staring at everything and nothing. I closed my eyes and imagined your gentle hand -- not the breeze -- caressing me, wiping away the crystalline tears that flowed like miniature rivulets down my cheek. Your ephemeral silhouette comforted me, and I reminded you that no matter when, no matter where, no matter how, no matter what... no one -- and I mean no one -- could ever take your place.

Today I watched a movie, not on the television, but on a blank wall -- it's nothing new. The projector in my mind played out our story: the love we gave, the love we took, the times we hurt, the way we trembled, and the way we shook; the hopes we had, the dreams we shared; the promises we made, the vows we swore -- the way we cared. And inside, my heart beat that familiar pulse -- no matter when, no matter where, no matter how, no matter what... no one -- and I mean no one -- could ever take your place.

Tonight I had dinner alone. No, I didn't eat a single bite -- it's nothing new. I stared solemnly upon the empty chair across from me. How futile again of me trying in vain to wish you there. But I can close my eyes and wish as I always do, can't I? I can replay from my memory those delicate words you spoke when you said, "I'll love you always and forever." And I'd reply softly into your ear, "no matter when, no matter where, no matter how, no matter what... no one -- and I mean no one -- could ever take your place."

Tonight I'll sleep alone. My soul will cry for you, and my essence will bleed of your memory -- it's nothing new. I'll remember your angelic arms around me, the warmth of your breath against my neck as we'd cradle each other, surrendering to the deepest of tranquil serenity. I'll reminisce of how we'd loved and what we'd said, and perhaps in your heart -- I'd like to think -- you'd felt that no matter when, no matter where, no matter how, no matter what... no one -- and I mean no one -- could ever take my place. 

Author's Note

Dedicated to any of you who've ever felt it. If you have, you'll know.

Reviews

[Leah]

This is one of the most heart-felt, touching, emotional, and beautiful things I have ever read. I love the repetition of "It's nothing new" and, of course, the title phrase. This adds a lot of feeling and emphasizes the loss. The interrupters in the sentences were also well planned, and they added to the thoughtfulness of the piece. Your imagery was wonderful. I actually felt like I was at that table eating dinner, or taking that walk, or watching that "movie." You made me think of my own losses and the times spent with them. Your diction was marvelous; the words were not only mature, but they were deep and personal. The similes, metaphors, and personification was well thought-out as well, and we very single one of them seemed to belong. I'm surprised you didn't bring tears to my eyes, because I know I sure felt like crying. The emotion, the love, the loss....purely intellectual. I'm adding this piece to my library. Thank you so much for sharing something so personal and beautiful with Writerscafe. You truly are an inspiration.

[Sami Khalil]

Very emotive and powerful. Thank you for sharing...:).........................

[Erin Lee]

I've been there for SURE! I hope you are feeling better now! You expressed something I think many of us have felt very eloquantely....

[Mai Aliza]

This incredible, I loved it. I think the repitition is a great idea and necessary to create that certain mood for such a powerful poem. And I have felt this way, only I'm trying to replace him, and I hope someone can replace him. But I'm sorry about your lost love, and I hope she comes back. I am adding this to my library so that I may read it over and over again. So that I may never forget it.

[Raevyne]

This is so terribly beautiful. It really affected me deeply. Your writing is strong and concise, but wistful at the same time.

[deeps]

Wow! I can so feel this and relate to it somewhat.
This is amazing. I like write very much so.
Well written. wonderfully said.

[Kayla]

I love how you are so descriptive!! It makes me feel like that person!! I can feel the emotion in the poem!! It's heavy and well, hard to explain. I liked this ALOT!! Great job!!!!

[The Night Mare]

As everyone else has said, this piece is beautiful. Everyone loves and misses someone- whether it be a family member or a spouse or simply a boyfriend or girlfriend.. And we all go through this process with them, alone.

[mmzx]

this is really very good.

a piece in which almost everybody can relate to. this is one of the best pieces ive read.

i hope your doing fine there. cheer up okay. mend that broken heart, somehow.

cause you know what they say; nothing lasts forever.

:D