A Thousand Words

The pain that follows when someone dear passes on.

This house, once the one of my dreams
Has become a sanctuary of sorrows, it seems
Memories imprinted everywhere
There are too many ghosts here
In the living room I hear her laughter
And singing in the shower, though it grows fainter
Sometimes I see her on the patio reading
Looking back at me and smiling
I swear her perfume lingers about the air
And in our bed, I sometimes roll over to see her there
I then sit up and realize it is in my mind, all fake
Just the manifestation of a heart’s ache.

Everyone assures it will heal with time
This is one of life’s mountains I need to climb
Eventually the pieces will realign
The scars will fade and everything will be okay
But to me it will never be alright in some way
For I should have found the words to say
Before last year, last month, just yesterday
Fled in haste, becoming so far away.

This is what’s on my mind today
As I walk this road trying to find my way
What combats my sleep at night
To which I am losing the fight
Is that she knew I loved her
But I never got to show just how much
It feels like she has been gone forever
And not a day passes that I do not miss her touch.

Everyone else's world keeps spinning
But it seems without you, mine has stopped revolving
I always pray it is some drawn out nightmare
And that when I awake, you will be there
I can only hope that someday
Maybe weeks, months, even today
We will be reunited again
And I can say all these words that I now pen
Jotting down everything I need to profess
I just wish you knew
I loved you, more than a thousands words could express
And that none of this seems right, without, you.

Reviews

[ReedWrite]

I think we all regret the words we didn't say...the hugs we didn't give...the moments we didn't connect. I know that if I passed this minute, my children would feel that pain...and yet...I know they love me...even when those words are not spoken, the hugs not given, and the moments not shared. Love is far deeper than we realize...and often doesn't need the trappings of humanity to express it. Even so...this poem is poignant in its message. It speaks to every heart that has suffered loss.

[Jack Necron (Aubrey Jack Peaslee)]

I agree and you make an interesting point, love does go beyond words. It's in the little things and the moments we share. Thank you for reading!

[Maria]

So true and so real. I am very happy to have made peace with my mom before she passed. It was hard watching her shrink to nothing but a corpse, as she fought to live some more...Thank you for this.

[Farha Nayamee]

A thousand words of wise applause on ur poem😊☺

[Jack Necron (Aubrey Jack Peaslee)]

Thank you for the kind words and review! I appreciate it.

[Valentine]

All of these words express my feelings since my husband died 3 years ago. Only I sold my home in Arkansas and moved back north to be near my family. Yet, I sometimes thing he will be coming north soon to pick me up and take me home. Losing hurts. Valentine

[Jack Necron (Aubrey Jack Peaslee)]

I'm sorry to hear of your loss and you are right, it certainly does. Thank you for reading and sharing that, I'm glad you could connect with it.