Ugly.

Ugly.

A Poem by Joshua Lean

I was born ugly.

Not the kind of Ugliness that makes my mother turn away in revulsion.

But the Ugliness that makes her stare intently,taking in every rough edge and every smooth curve.

Only so that she can sit awake at night and ask God what he was up to.

The type of ugliness that you wear like a jacket even when it smells of dried sweat and stunted growth.

Ugliness is what made effulgent barbarians out of grown men.

Because civilization and sanity are only opiums for civilized and sane people and civilized and sane people are beautiful people.

Ugliness is what makes the painter paint,the sculptor sculpt and the writer write.

Their very existence is an act of rebellion,of contumaciousness.

Art is Ugliness that helps us realise nature’s deficiencies and it cannot appeal to beautiful people,it offends their being,it is objectionable and unpleasant to their senses.

Ugliness is what prompted negroes to march and sing for a liberty that was supposed to be intrinsic and not take up arms.

Ugliness was the fire in his bones when he stood on that podium,forsaking office and gentry and tell the truth for what it was.

Yes,Ugliness was the culprit.

Ugliness was the strength in her eyes when she gave that child a hug,when she held that man’s hands and told that woman it was going to be alright.Ugliness was what made her die for a cause she knew was never going to lift her out of a squalor that her family had struggled with for generations.

Ugliness was what made him look at faces that opposed him and still decide that he was not going to pick that stone or utter that curse.

Ugliness was what made him think that his justice and freedom were for naught if the man in the next room did not have his justice and freedom granted to him and in equal measure.

Ugliness breathed in his breaths when he said an eye for an eye,and the world will go blind.

Ugliness was the reason she said that if you love until it hurts there can be no more hurt only love.

Ugliness was what made that promising scholar turn his back on years of academic excellence to join an army he was so clearly unfit for.

For Queen and Country was what he said.

Ugliness was what swam in their veins when they suspended the death sentence because they believed that Human Rights were fundamental,that they were rights for not some,not a majority but every human being.

If you seek someone to blame,blame ugliness.

Ugliness was what made that mother contend the sentence against her son with every thing she had and did not have.

Courage?.No,that was Ugliness.

Ugliness is what makes that mandarin stay true to his oaths and that wife true to her vows.

Ugliness is what makes the little girl kneel beside her bed every night and pray for the hands that beat her.

For the tounges that curse her and for a government that does not acknowledge her.

Ugliness is not a beautiful thing,a beautiful thing is that which has tried to imitate Ugliness and failed..

Ugliness is ugly.

 

© 2013 Joshua Lean


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This takes nerve...to write so ugly. No really...this is bad in a gooooooooooood way! If you look past the facade, and search my library of poems...you'll see that most of my topic matters are what most would consider to be ugly and/or taboo. Why does ugly make us stop in our tracks and go ooohhh ewe or awe? It's because we have been conditioned to accept only beautiful things. I myself..am inspired by "ugly" I think even an ugly thought and or curse word to be beautiful if the moment is right. There's "ugly" which is just a unjust version of being different...and there is wrong and evil. Too many people try to brand ugly as evil or wrong. This is the real delusion..

Posted 11 Years Ago


2 of 2 people found this review constructive.

Joshua Lean

11 Years Ago

I agree,completely.It's a shame that people can only see things through the eyes of the ones that ca.. read more
Muse

11 Years Ago

welcome :))
Joshua Lean

11 Years Ago

I have my first story up!



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many quotes here. and in the end, the "ugliness" loses its meaning due to semantic satiation. but i guess that would be perfect for a scape goat.

Posted 11 Years Ago


you gave a whole new definition to ugly my friend. I totally agree. The last line added to the essence. Great job here. No other words...

Posted 11 Years Ago


Joshua Lean

11 Years Ago

Thank you!
This takes nerve...to write so ugly. No really...this is bad in a gooooooooooood way! If you look past the facade, and search my library of poems...you'll see that most of my topic matters are what most would consider to be ugly and/or taboo. Why does ugly make us stop in our tracks and go ooohhh ewe or awe? It's because we have been conditioned to accept only beautiful things. I myself..am inspired by "ugly" I think even an ugly thought and or curse word to be beautiful if the moment is right. There's "ugly" which is just a unjust version of being different...and there is wrong and evil. Too many people try to brand ugly as evil or wrong. This is the real delusion..

Posted 11 Years Ago


2 of 2 people found this review constructive.

Joshua Lean

11 Years Ago

I agree,completely.It's a shame that people can only see things through the eyes of the ones that ca.. read more
Muse

11 Years Ago

welcome :))
Joshua Lean

11 Years Ago

I have my first story up!
This takes nerve...to write so ugly. No really...this is bad in a gooooooooooood way! If you look past the facade, and search my library of poems...you'll see that most of my topic matters are what most would consider to be ugly and/or taboo. Why does ugly make us stop in our tracks and go ooohhh ewe or awe? It's because we have been conditioned to accept only beautiful things. I myself..am inspired by "ugly" I think even an ugly thought and or curse word to be beautiful if the moment is right. There's "ugly" which is just a unjust version of being different...and there is wrong and evil. Too many people try to brand ugly as evil or wrong. This is the real dilusion..

Posted 11 Years Ago


This was so well done! Very thought provoking and beautiful. Splendidly penned. (:

1billion/100 ;)

Posted 11 Years Ago


Joshua Lean

11 Years Ago

Haha! Thank you!
How very intriguing that what you state as ugliness, to me is the very essence of beauty. The individuality of the soul you believe to be " ugly" I believe it is purity. Love. It is the embodiment of what makes life worth living. Love makes sacrifice pure. There is ugliness in conformity, ugliness in the civil, the " sane", that need to walk within the lines drawn by the mass of society is due to the weak's need for comfort, where ignorance breeds ugliness. If being yourself, undefined by civilization, refusing to conform to societies definition of sanity and beauty is "ugly" then I prefer to be known as hideously ugly.
Your brilliance is astounding, even if our views differ, I feel elated to read such amazing thoughts, to me, you are beautiful!

Posted 11 Years Ago


This is really good work.. I found myself lingering on each line and really thinking it through I love work that does that. Thank you for the request to read your work
I will be back for more x

Posted 11 Years Ago


Joshua Lean

11 Years Ago

Thank you!
This was a very good write. Overall, the tone is very thought provoking. The idea that love itself is ugly? It's an interesting thought.
There are a couple typos, but I'm sure if you go through the work, you'll spot them pretty quickly. Thanks for sharing!

Posted 11 Years Ago


Joshua Lean

11 Years Ago

Thank you!
beauty and ugliness ..as opposites? considering it...would use plain ness ordinary as the opposite myself..but you are the writer... nice execution of ideas..great unusual form..as a flow of thinking processes..I like it. Laury

Posted 11 Years Ago


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~ poetically speaking, this is amazingly powerful and poignant work... philosophically speaking, i'd say that rage is ugly but compassion is not... but then that's just me...

Posted 11 Years Ago


Joshua Lean

11 Years Ago

Thank you! I didn't mean ugly in its literal sense, I meant it figuratively. Alluding to cause for r.. read more
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11 Years Ago

~ you're very welcome... i do hear you... i really do... i face that "revulsion" every day... i supp.. read more

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