Getting Back To Being Me

I'm trying so hard not to break,
my emotional dam can't let go of it's lake.
The waters press on me inside,

something tells me there is going to be another tide.

My world is shaking,
my life is breaking.
All I thought I knew is a lie,
and all I wanna do is cry.

I want this pressure to ease away,

To save my tears for another day.

I can’t stand this feeling of wanting to die,

but I don’t want to say goodbye.

I have the weight of the world on my shoulders,
but I wouldn't want it to burden any other holders.
I’ve gotten use to carrying this load,

I often wonder if I will ever get out of this mode.

I’ve locked myself in this prison of pain,

I’m the only one to take the blame.

Yet I smile for the world to see,

No one knowing I’m drowning in life’s sea.

I'm tired of making everyone's pain go away,
and putting on a show for them everyday.
It’s time to get rid of all this strife,
and get back to living my life.

Reviews

[LostinKristina]

This describes so much of what i feel it's like you took the words out of my mouth.

[♪GetUse2MyMelodie..]

Honestly, you filled the missing words of how Ive been feeling. Thank you :)
Great write though. I like the comparison to water.

[fernii]

I love this poem, Its interesting and i feel like i relate to it as i feel the same way as what the poem describes :) keep writing