The Pill

Xanax to help me with my dying mind

Restoril to help me close my eyes and obliterate my thoughts and wake a new

Xanax, stop giving me these racing thoughts that run wild in my mind uncontrollably and confused

Pestoril, you're the one that changes my insomnia to the dreams I've been longing for when you finally make me shut down in the night

Xanax, please help me forget but don't destroy my thoughts

Pestoril, please help me shut them down again but please make me wake again

Xanax, I don't wanna forget the feeling of...

Pastoril, please I don't want you to lock me up deep inside

Xanax and Pastoril, Don't make me forget, I wanna stay in love with my sorrow

But dear god, I really wanna let it go!

Come with me again as we go back to bed, I don't wanna sleep alone

Xanax, Pastoril you hid my struggle but couldn't hide my emptiness

You let it show

Looking at my reflection to see what you wrought

Nothing but ugliness and the darkest shades under my eyes

Shades of the very darkness I have fought

My reflection holds nothing but lies

The lies that I have tried to conceal by using you

But both of you brought me nothing but more pain

messing up my mentality to make me look insane

I can't really hold on to me

I wonder whats wrong with me?

You drowned my well to sore

Deep down the water I inundate to its very core

Only here in the darkness you have besieged me is where I know myself

I'll never be free unless I break it by letting go of me

So please

Let go of me...

Shadows and voices reappeared to me as soon as I gave up on you

My friends, please I need you again

Having you is better than to be alone

I had to wait until the very end when I had to fall again

Once again among the ashes

Once again I must ask you

Why can't I hold on to me

Whats wrong with me?

Xanax, Restoril please help me

Xanax, Restoril stay away from me

Reviews

[Tabby Mac]

Most powerful line for me was "I wanna stay in love with my sorrow."

I've not taken pills like this piece says but I struggled with depression for over 11 years before I found complete freedom from it and the very thing I struggled with before I finally forgave myself was not so much this very verse You have written but a variation.
Mine was..."who am I without my sorrow."
I feel you captured an inner struggle that many people face... adding pills to it...well done.
Tabby

[Joey Nizz]

Thanks Tabby, and yes I wanted to capture the struggle and the addiction that some people have, because I too felt the same but never went on that road of pills and addiction.
And Im really sorry to hear about your past, I understand I too have been depressed for years, hell maybe I still am lol but sometimes I would like to the other way because Im not getting any younger, none of us are so why waste whatever we have left to live on sadness.

[Tabby Mac]

Such inspiration words! Yes, I now chose to be grateful instead of sad.
Great write!
Tabby

[Joey Nizz]

Please do and thank you for being so :)

[Farhan Shaikh]

This is an awesome piece of work
"Once again among the ashes
Once again I must ask you
Why can't I hold on to me
Whats wrong with me?"
Wonderful work joey, i like it

[Joey Nizz]

Thank you for your review Farhan, I'm glad you liked it :)