T

Never thought I would write this about you, but I miss you everyday and forever you will be in my heart. R.I.P. T

I once knew you when nobody else wanted to know me, in the days when we first started classes all alone i was, but you came to me and you were the only one that did and you asked me to borrow a pen, I gave it to you and never saw it again, but it was okay because it was just a pen. 

Days and weeks have passed since we became friends, you made me copies off your notes as i made you copies of mine, we were always together, day and night, used to come to my place as i came to yours, we promised each other that we will always be there for each other no matter what.

years have passed till we got relocated to study somewhere new, we grew tighter than ever and its been years, till the dark day came when i almost lost my life, you were always there for me, not leaving my side not even paying attention to whats going on in your life while i was just laying still on my dying bed, no movements no sound.

The days has turned into months and you still wouldn't leave my side, till the day i woke and was once again I was among the living, we went back to our normal lives but not really, i was always just recovering waiting till i was able to go back outside, I even told you, no need to stay with me ill be fine, I begged for you to get out there to enjoy life for the both of us.

So you did.

And the days have passed, so did the weeks followed by the months, you were living life as i was living mine, I lost touch with you and i have only myself to blame, never made enough effort to call you for an other hang like we used to back in the days, always keeping to myself away from everyone, just on my own, until an other dark day came when i found out you also almost died this time, but you were given an other chance like i did, and you were recovering like i did but i still made no call, only once in a while i used to stop by, till the darkest day came when they told me you died...

I didn't believe it at first, always thought it was one of the jokes you used to pull, until i saw them bury you into the ground, I even went to your grave because i still didn't believe what was going on..

I finally came to my senses and realized and finally accepted what was happening is real, I finally shed a tear that was followed by some more tears.

As I'm writing this down, I'm soaking this keyboard with tears, I thought i would be stronger by now but I guess i can't hide these smears..

I never felt so down and so disappointed with myself, because I was never there as much as you were to me, until this day I always remembered you, always refusing to see a picture of you, I don't wanna see you because it'll just make me full of the regret and sorrow, till I decided to make things right, i went to your grave that night and not knowing if you could actually hear me, but i had to give it a try, it was the only thing i could try, i tried to make peace with you and i hope i finally did, because you were the one and only, real friend i have ever been with.

It was really hard for me to say goodbye to you, but I know now your in a better place.

Remember what you used to tell me?

"Never let your self down for something that you cannot change, just live and hope everything will be okay"

Farewell my friend, until we meet again, I don't know when or where but i'm pretty sure we will.

R.I.P. T.

Reviews

[ReedWrite]

A lot of emotion expressed here...deep and soul-touching. I have always believed that writing can help us put things into prospective. It can give us a way to organize our thoughts and feelings, which in turn helps us handle grief and loss. I think this write is a big first step in the right direction.

[Joey Nizz]

Writing has helped me alot, it cleared my mind and heart and helped me to open up new things in my mind and heart as well.

Thank you for your review and yes it was a big step :)

[Ardra]

Very emotional write joey...some friends are worth letting go of ego and getting back to them...but we live like we have forever....

I had tears after reading it....
Sometimes it too late isn't it ..
To mend hearts...to say good byes...to say we love them.....
So we should do what our heart says.... love the ones who are close to us.....

I loved these lines
Never let your self down for something that you cannot change, just live and hope everything will be okay"

Thanks for sharing :)

[Joey Nizz]

Your welcome and thank you for reviewing :)
Your right, some friends are worth letting go, but sometimes its hard you know? it took me a long time after I moved on but at least i finally did. I will still miss him dearly.

[Ardra]

Ah what I meant was ...sometimes it's better to let go of the ego...so that we don't have to let go of our friends....but the time taken to realise it is more often late ...
Am glad you wrote this for your friend... he will be smiling from above :)

[Joey Nizz]

I hope he is happy up there!
and sorry if i misunderstood your comment, and you are right, we should let go of our ego or pride so we wouldnt let go of the ones we love.

Thank you again.

[Stacy Purvis]

Your should be You are or You're
Sad, lamentation. Flow is good. Feeling intense. Aside from spelling and grammar, wonderful story with passion.

[Joey Nizz]

Thank you for your review, Ill fix the mistakes, thank you for telling me about them so i can fix them.

[Stacy Purvis]

I'm here for you. I enjoy your art. : )

[Joey Nizz]

Thank you very much I enjoy yours as well so lets show the world what we can do! :D

[Stacy Purvis]

YAY!!! Let's do this thing! : )

[Joey Nizz]

leeeeeetttttttsssss DO IT! *STRONG HIGH FIVE*

[Najam Us Saher]

This is so heart wrenching. It hurts so much to accept the demise of a friend so close. Be strong that's what I can say. I liked the conclusion of this story.

[Joey Nizz]

We have to be strong for them , because that's whats how they want us to be.

[Najam Us Saher]

Yes exactly.....