Resilience

Thoughts upon thoughts are compounding my mind.

These thoughts keep me up, devouring time.

I lie in fitful silence, my mind strives

To seek all the answers; why must I live?

 

It’s been too many hours since I slept.

My eyes look baggy, my hair is unkempt.

But still my mind keeps racing, burning bright

Looks like I will not be sleeping tonight.

Instead I will release my thoughts on here.

A charming blank canvas needs me to steer

My words into art, dead this day and age.

Should I keep going, or stay at a page?

 

The doubt trickles in, the faucet’s leaking

Who cares enough to stare at my inklings?

Then it hits me, the sweetest drug I know

Self-gratification we all should know.

 

Every artist craves it, humans have flaws.

When we make something we all want applause.

But when it is absent, do we get scared?

Do we curl up in a ball, tear our hair?

 

No we do not, resilience is key.

I strive to do better, this is for me.

I want to be new, incredibly green

My novelty will stay deep in your dreams.  

Reviews

[barleygirl]

This is one of the very best things I read about the writer's life EVER (& there are tons of such messages being pumped out all the time on these websites!) The rhythm & rhyme work beautifully, the pacing feels nicely slow & meandering, so many vivid examples of how it feels & how it goes, yet without adding anything cliché. The whole time I was wondering how "resilience" would fit into this message & you did a fresh take on it in the last stanza. Love the word "inklings" . . . love "sweetest drug I know" (& how this is described in subsequent lines). Second to last stanza is more honesty than most writers can cough up, very well described & true.

[J.M. Wise]

Thank you! I actually wrote this when I could think of nothing to write, so I decided to write about the process instead of an actual piece. I am glad you know the struggle and I enjoy that you like truth. Thanks for reading.

[aLittlePain]

Hello, what a great piece, I love the way you crafted the releasing of thoughts, very nicely done.
I enjoyed the entire piece but the last 3 stanzas were outstanding. R xo

[J.M. Wise]

Thank you! It took me a little while to get in a consistent rhythm but I am glad you enjoyed the poem. It was written while I was up late one night haha.