I'm Not Here

I just wanna thank everyone who listened to "Chaos," it really means the world to me. Jacob and I are re-releasing our first song. It's called "I'm Not Here." As always, I''d be super appreciative and thankful if you guys would once again indulge me and have a listen. Once again, I did the music, Jacob did the lyrics and vocals. Thanks so much!

The lyrics, by Jacob Ansari

I'm not here 

The real ain't clear 

Oh what can I do 

To be me and you 

This all ain't true 

Sobriety from society is all i can do

 I'm not here 

The real ain't clear 

Ain't clear 

Stay here 

To tears 

No fear 

Go peer

In here 

Sin veers 

To sear

Flesh My dear 

Best 

Go near 

Test 

That fear 

There is no fear 

I'm not here 

There is no fear 

I'm not here 

I'm not here 

This fabric 

Its manic 

No panic 

Just tragic 

Rust magic 

Metallic Lithium 

The idiom 

Elysium 

Death numb 

Breath done 

Rest none 

Best run 

To sun 

Burn some 

Learn puns 

To fit in 

The lit tin 

Hearts depart from start 

Torn apart 

Sworn depart 

This life confines the lies and ties to define signs 

Closed blinds 

I'm blind 

No world 

Woes swirl 

In a pearl 

White unfurls 

Nothing 

There's nothing 

No space to place I cant stay

I'm not here

Reviews

[FPW]

Unfortunately I have no ear for music or skill with instruments either. I was the kind of Gal that faked playing the recorder in classes because I simply had no ear for the sound. I will say the music and lyrics merge together quite well to me and the lyrics certainly have a layer of rhyming complexity difficult to capture. I enjoyed the ‘sobriety from society’ snippet. Something we all need at times. Well done on your shared composition, John.

[John Sullivan]

Thank you so much! Jacob is a very talented and intense kid, it's a joy to work with him, and I think he's quite the poet himself... "Burn some, learn puns to fit in, the lit tin, hearts depart from start, torn apart..."

[emmajoygreen]

Extraordinary changes of emotion within the music and words: first time compulsion to listen again. Third time, had to stop, too much but know that was positive rather than.. because the lyrics did what was intended.. at least for the singer, lyricist and all. The emotions therein are quite 'something' - silence defying = needing to be heard, noticed and - were

[John Sullivan]

You're much too kind, miss Emma. Jacob brings a real intensity to his work, which is something I very much appreciate. We try to dig deep, capture something real... thanks for listening!

[1809 Black Plague Decem..]

Dear Jonh Sullivan, um, it is really a word of puns that you mention.
Grant it, my interpretation, is that the character feared, and now wilt's it to cry
to fear, the world within the mind is chaos. Lithium, the world of psychosis,
the seclusion to sobriety, ingenious, great writ, ----Maynard James Keenan

[John Sullivan]

So super kind of you! Always a pleasure, friend

[1809 Black Plague December]

definitely, Dearest.

[Neville]

I think you pair have got something a little bit special .. almost early Floydish so can't be a bad thing ..

[John Sullivan]

Thanks Nev. Jacob is a really talented kid, it's a pleasure to be working with him. Def dig some Pink Floyd, I will take the comparison as a compliment :p

[Neville]

I think you will go far .. just stick at it .. please :)

[Thomas W Case]

This is fantastic John. Great work.

[John Sullivan]

Thanks so much Tom!

[Stella Armour]

I love how the pace picks up and then fades away...

Good to see the video John , it all adds to the atmopshere.
Sort of frantic and then it all slows down to normality ..

[John Sullivan]

Jacob brings a real intensity to his work, which I appreciate. Thanks so much for listening!

[Stella Armour]

i am glad that you shared his mental health problems with us as it helps to understand a lot about the music and words that you share..

[Arundass TP]

Brilliant photography. I love that.

[John Sullivan]

Yeah, Jacob's an incredibly talented photographer/film-maker in addition to his poetic gifts. Great kid. Thanks for listening

[Arundass TP]

This is great to listen. Beautiful lyrics. Keep it up

[John Sullivan]

Thank you so kindly, friend.

[Soren]

I'm reminded of Pink Floyd's "Is anybody out there?" not that the lyrics are similar but that the feel is similar. Thanks for the share.

[John Sullivan]

That's only fair, I'm a PF enthusiast, they're a huge influence on my work. Thanks so much for listening!