My Great History

this is like the most amazing that Ive read and maybe written but it makes no sense. what the hell is up with writing somehthing so clear yet not? how the hell did i do it?

 

What must I do to be great,

what must I do to be the best,

what can I do to change my fate,

why must I endure test after test,

 

why must I win and not lose,

why do I even have to choose,

between victory and defeat,

between what's good and sweet,

 

and what's evil and vile,

and I stand here all the while,

never knowing why,

it is that I cry,

 

for the reason is unknown,

and this pain has grown,

beyond what I can endure,

yet I must while I remain unsure,

 

of what to do next,

while they remained suppressed,

I knew what to do,

I could see what was true,

 

but now they're unleashed,

and my defenses were breached,

the ones I met brought it back like new,

they destroyed my training and all I knew,

 

for I had always thought with logic and reason,

and my emotions remained hidden within,

but now they're back and are too strong,

and I find it hard to suppress them for long,

 

for I have lost my ability to wear my mask, my wall,

and I have become what I feared, vulnerable,

I have not one but three,

and though they hide so no one can see,

 

they're still there making me human,

for I have always fought against what I am,

but now even I cannot deny,

that the question “what am I?”

 

has been answered at last,

and now like in the past,

I will accept my fate though I will say,

that just like back in the day,

 

that I will describe my fate,

with as many words that make me great,

for I feel that I cannot be restricted to one word,

and while I know that it might seem absurd,

 

I care not what you think,

for I will go beyond the brink,

and use words that describe my greatness,

in more words than you have ever witness,

 

for I feel the need to be boundless,

in my quest for the infiniteless,

truth that I seek and desire,

and though no one will admire,

 

what I do or say,

I'll do it anyway,

for I know that no one,

will be able to do what I've done,

 

for I will reach the peak,

raising it higher so no one can seek,

to be as great as I,

for only I can defy,

 

the laws that are in place,

and you can make your face,

when you stare in disbelief,

or sigh with relief,

 

knowing that I don't lie,

about the things that I,

say I will do,

because its true,

 

for I will fight to my last breath,

for I do not fear the god of death,

the reaper of souls,

the killer of mortal goals,

 

for many fear him and his might,

but I alone will still fight,

for too many depend on me for strength,

and for them I will go to any length,

 

facing all those who stand in my way,

and it doesn't matter what they do or say,

for I will not lose till the day comes,

for on that early day as it slowly dawns,

 

for now close your eyes,

and wait for the surprise,

as a small shimmering light,

slowly breaks through the twilight,

 

my true want, need, and fear,

will come closer so near,

my main desire known only to me,

and the cover that you all see,

 

is a lie though its all true,

and before any of you,

start to think otherwise,

remember that truth is told by my lies,

 

for the cover that you see is true for all,

for me its my only defense from being vulnerable,

while I do have unrivaled confidence,

and its true that I have unmatched intelligence,

 

they're my armor and my shield,

and thanks to them its yet to be revealed,

and I plan to reveal it only to one,

yet so far to tell I have none,

 

just know that while I remain secretive,

of a goal that I am so protective,

I'm still Julio Cesar Ruiz The Mexican F-in Dragon,

and I ain't braggin.

Author's Note

well ive reread this and fixed the mistakes and also edited it so that its easier to read. Its been so long i guess that i mustve forgotten what this was about and why i even wrote it or how for that matter cuz i dont think that i can do it again.

Reviews

[Kait]

That is really good. It seems a lot like a rhyme or rap which make it very unique, I also think that the rap look makes it better. Good Job!

[Saosinkid (Death whispe..]

wow this was truly fawesome
i liked your wording
i like the questions u put into my head
i love all the thoughts going through my head
good poem indeed :)