Quitting

Something I found at the bottom of an old drawer I was cleaning out. There were three of them together and when I found them, they made me laugh a little. This is the first.

I breathe you in; you fill my lungs.
You make me feel like it's only just begun.
And so it has; I sought you ought.
So innocently you hid what you're about.
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Seduce my mind; control my thoughts.
I try to resist you, but it's all my fault.
I started this; so innocent.
I never thought that it would be permanent.
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I fooled myself; I lost control.
I let you fill a void in something that's whole.
"I don't need you", I tell myself.
Yet, I can't seem to put you back on the shelf.
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Every morning, I reach for you.
You start my day off right and you see it through.
You're always there; you're tried and true.
Every day now, I pray that I can quit you.
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I welcome you, you're an escape.
I'm growing tired of all your mental rape.
Dependency, just an excuse.
When will I find the strength to finally break loose.
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With every breathe you're killing me.
Yet I still crawl back to you so faithfully.
Now I want out; and i don't care.
I want to be free and breathe fresh air.

Reviews

[topsyturvy]

Hmm cigarettes? :P Two things came to mind while reading this. First, substance abuse you're trying to quit, or a person :P Both things have something in common. Either way, it's hard to get over and you're trying to be free of either one. But, just my opinion :P Btw, I love the flow of your poem :)

[Ang]

I really really like this