Clear

I've seen misery make a love to me
Envelop my dire dreams and send me to the grave
With my hands stuck to pillars
Remembering I've seen two times of lies
And no one could make sense of that

I can write vilifications to clarifications
To an insufferable mind
Not truly wanting my answers
Daunting in my own existence while they set flames to my questions
As if blasphemy is a trend
As if lost faith and lost hope was a rebellion to a higher power
Maybe they should change where they stand...
Because their point of view is contorted

I've never tried to revoke what I rooted from
Seedling to a belief that I never understood enough
But now I'm drowning in the water in which claimed me to be
One of them
More than just a human being
But you'll never understand that

You will never understand that

And I'd blame myself before I blame you for blinding me
Cause I let it happen
I let the deafening sounds of counterfeit cures become my only awakening
To realize that lies come in many different forms
And even the most comforting
Can cause the biggest war
Cause you'll accept what you accept without second guessing your perception
Rather than break free and cast away evil
You embody an eternity of insanity

You keep telling yourself that this is not how you raised me
But praise me for not remaining in chains
That gave me mixed messages of what true compassion is
In which betrayed me

The same religion that wants to condemn me
I can't render another night of it
And I could chop up the pieces that work best
But I'd rather isolate my mind than going on living in yours
While convulsing in my own regret