Two hands
Within each, a decision
One who understands
The other like an incision
Something that never heals
At the brink of drowning
In my own fermenting tears
Held back over many devastating years
All the If Only's in the world could not replace
What actually is staring me in the face
So another shielded day my heart must rest
To preserve what energy of life is left
All I can do is hope for happiness
The long awaited death of sadness
I can no longer scream from within
So I lay in the shadows once again
Holding close the only thing I'll always have
Myself