I Can't

Just keep going on, despite our mind saying we can't.

I try so hard
Yet here I am
Still bursting at the seems
I keep it all
Inside myself
To haunt me in my dreams
They say it soon
Will be okay
That time will heal my wounds
I find it hard
To think the best
No matter what I do

I can’t
Keep pretending that I’m okay
I can’t
Be the man who conceals his fate
I can’t
Bear the weight of this suffering
I can’t
Muster strength to get through this day

I’m at the door
I’m knocking hard
But they won’t let me in
They say I must
Despite my heart
Stay here for I must live
Why must I fight
Keep going on
When deep inside I can’t
To stay is pain
Persistent rain
Why would I stay for that

I can’t
Give up hope that this s**t will end
I can’t
Let my light fade: let darkness in
I can’t
Let my family drown in my pain
I can’t
Stop the fight, must get through the day

Reviews

[Chris Shaw]

A desperation here in these words. Reminds me of a deep depression when we are struggling to find a glint of light at the end of a long dark tunnel. A problem shared has always been a problem halved in my own experience. So important to seek help when the darkness seems overwhelming. A poem that many will relate to James. I hope this is fiction,. My own experience is that the light breaks through eventually.

Chris

[James Probert]

It's not fiction. It's a struggle unfortunately, but it is something that I continue to fight despite myself.
Thanks for reading Chris.

[Chris Shaw]

So sorry to hear that James. I hope that writing about it, helps. Best wishes for recovery.

[James Probert]

Writing helps a bit. Thank you for your well wishes. I appreciate it allot.

[Chris Shaw]

You are welcome. Keep going. It:s tough, I know.

[John the Baptist]

Sounds like the end of the rope. The speaker is in some type of intractable pain, though whether physical or psychological is not stated. Despite the claims that the agony is unbearable, at the poem's end the speaker is gritting teeth, determined to make it through one more day. Don't know how much longer this can be borne. Yet people somehow do it.